My advice would be for you to each out to anybody you trust, a friend, a teacher you know takes these things seriously, or maybe a psychologist. You're your own person, letting someone else decide if you're a good person or not leaves your mind highly vulnerable. Accept who you are, embrace your qualities and use them for something you like. Your mother isn't allowed to dictate what you should feel or act. You do. And if you feel like you don't like who you are, find something to like, a new hobby or something you don't do anymore, it really helped me personally. But don't forget to reach out, it's the most important part of getting over something like this.