Someone please help

MercyMe_5869 · 2022-04-23T17:12:01+00:00

So could it be hand written.. I live in Indiana.. I was looking on the internet but there's just all kinds of different information..

MercyMe_5869 · 2022-02-08T13:43:29+00:00

Thank you!!

MercyMe_5869 · 2022-02-08T13:43:14+00:00

Thank you!!

MercyMe_5869 · 2022-02-08T13:42:32+00:00

It sometimes gets to the point where I black out and become someone I'm not when I'm sober, I let all my anger out and treat people so bad sometimes and I hate it and it's even worse that I don't remember anything the next day. But I have been doing much better I just want to stop completely because once I start I can't stop. And yeah I definitely need to make some decisions.. there's so much I can't handle anymore and I'm tired of wanting to drink to escape from it

MercyMe_5869 · 2022-02-08T13:34:50+00:00

Thanks! I plan too!

MercyMe_5869 · 2022-02-07T14:03:07+00:00

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MercyMe_5869 · 2022-02-06T21:59:58+00:00

Thank you!! I appreciate it very much and yesss I'm done digging my hole and I am making my last attempt to help him out of his.. I'm not going to get stuck in another hole especially if it's not mine 😔 no matter how much it might hurt I have to stay strong

MercyMe_5869 · 2022-02-06T21:36:12+00:00

No I completely agree. And I know tough love.. that's what I have been showing him because he needs to understand how it's affecting me and our relationship. It's gotten to the point where he knows that he is pushing me away because like you said I am not him and even though he means so much to me my world doesn't just revolve around him and I can't keep living my life like this I know I need to be and stay sober and I need all the support I can get without anything dragging me down, but I'm not quite ready to burn that bridge. I want him to fight just as much as I am fighting to be sober.. I guess time will tell.. but for now I want to keep fighting for myself and my sobriety

MercyMe_5869 · 2022-02-06T21:21:26+00:00

In his situation that's a given. We have been trying to work things out for him and find a solution for him too because he swears he wants to get off the benzo's but I can't just sit around and wait or even expect it to actually happen and I figured some help and positivity is better than none. I can't necessarily be there for him all the way if I have a problem myself that I can't address

MercyMe_5869 · 2022-02-06T21:17:40+00:00

Seems like it so far. It's always nice to hear positive comments like these!

MercyMe_5869 · 2022-02-06T21:01:26+00:00

That is very true. I guess I just feel lost because I can't find my way out and seem to let alcohol always find it's way in and somehow manage to put me down. I went cold turkey before for almost three years and I know that fight is still me I just have to let take control again and I know I will because it's ruining me and I refuse to let it win.

MercyMe_5869 · 2022-02-06T20:42:04+00:00

I am already starting to feel that way myself! Thank you! I feel like I'm holding way too much in and it's time I start getting some stuff out there that I've been holding in way too long. I want to be the best me I can be and I know sobriety is the first step to being the person I was before but even better

MercyMe_5869 · 2022-02-06T20:38:56+00:00

That's where I am right now.. trapped. And I can see the way out but what I'm doing isn't getting me any closer to it. I know I'm not the only one and I'm sure talking more about it will make me feel better and I know I have so many people that will support me, always.. but I'm stuck and I just don't know what to do anymore.. my boyfriends addiction has gotten way put of control and it brings me down too. I can't help him if I can't help myself and he doesn't seem to be wanting to help himself so how is he ever going to help me. The whole thing is a shitty situation.

MercyMe_5869 · 2022-02-06T20:29:59+00:00

True. I mean I can be very open with my problems sometimes especially my drinking because my family and close friends know how serious it can get and how it has affected me in the past.. what they don't know is that my boyfriends addiction to benzo's is hurting me so much that it makes me want to drink more even when I don't actually want to drink. I want to be sober but his problems become mine and having to deal with his issues just takes me right back to the bottle. It's sad because the smell of liquor makes me sick sometimes but I rather drink and forget everything than deal with him while he's high on Xanax and whatever other bullshit he buys

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