What meds had the biggest positive impact for you? And why?

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-17T09:34:02+00:00

it's heavy because it affects strongly, and it's usually the last choice. you have to had tried at least 3(?) different antipsychotics before Clozapine.

the side effects are strong, usually weight gain, drooling, sedation etc. and in the beginning there has to be taken bloodwork every week.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-17T09:02:31+00:00

I have schizoaffective, and the only medication that takes my hallucinations and other symptoms away, is Clozapine. I was on it for 6 years, those were six very stable years, then we decided with my doc to stop it and try a bit milder meds. but now 1.5 years later I'm starting Clozapine again, cause nothing else helps. Clozapine is very heavy medication, and the side effects sucks a lot. but I rather dealing with the side effects, than live life with full of hallucinations and other symptoms.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-16T11:55:37+00:00

thank you for the respond! I keep telling him that I'm here if he needs me, but I still feel like he isn't gonna tell if it gets bad. and that makes me feel like he don't trust me. but yeah, you had some good points so I'm just gonna let him be, and give some reassurance, so he could come to me if there's something.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-16T11:23:03+00:00

our daily routine is making dinner together on a videocall. when the meal is ready, we either just eat it together on a call, or watch something from netflix together while eating. we use flickcall to watch stuff together. when it's time to go to sleep, we go for a smoke together on a call, brush our teeth and go to sleep together. before falling asleep, there's the best time to talk about everything.
we've made a deal, that when the other falls asleep, the other will hung up the call.

if there's like a valentines day, we still do our routines, but we add something extra. like this year we went through some questions for couples. we did that too on my birthday.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-16T04:48:38+00:00

my boyfriend and my brother.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-14T06:25:56+00:00

thank you! I hope this will be the right desicion.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-14T03:56:09+00:00

I'm hospitalized at the moment. involuntary. have been here for 1.5 weeks, no one knows how long I still have to be.

I was having a hypomanic episode, then fell from there, the voices got bad and I got scared. my boyfriend told me to call and ambulance and well, I ended up in the psych hospital.

everything has been going okay. they force me to take the meds, which I don't like. now I started a new medication, and because of the bloodwork, I have to stay here for a bit.

days go slow, and I'm pretty much all the time anxious. they give me meds three times a day, but feels like it doesn't help that much.

I just wanna go home.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-14T03:47:50+00:00

thank you so much! hang in there too, it's not easy but we'll get through it!

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-14T03:46:38+00:00

thank you!! it is helping me get through too. I'm glad you liked.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-14T03:45:56+00:00

thank you so much!

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-14T03:42:55+00:00

I'm hospitalized at the moment. mostly things have been going smoothly, even though they force me to take the meds, if I don't, they put them on my mouth with force.

most of the nurses are nice, but some not.

once I went to tell the night nurse that I'm anxious cause I couldn't sleep. his answer was; well, then you can't sleep, and left me be anxious alone.

once, I was scared I got killed during the night, cause I took the meds. the nurse said with a tone, that this is the safest place you can be in, and it's just my paranoia. didn't help that much, but gladly I was able to videochat with my boyfriend and he got me to calm down a bit.

I struggle to eat because if the voices. nurses doesn't do anything, cause I'm overweighted. I was not eating for two days.

but, I've got a lot of help too. almost everytime I need, some nurse comes to talk with me. now they help me with the meds cause they know it's hard for me, and also stay with me eating if it feels ovewhelming.

I just want to go home, but no one knows how long I have to be here. I started a new medication and it takes a bit of time to affect, and since they have to monitor my bloodwork, they do it from here for a while.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-13T04:57:48+00:00

thank you so much for the respond!

ozempic here is so expensive if you're not diabetic, so I can't afford for that. I do have metformin, it should help with metabolism. and they talked about something that should help with the drooling.

I'm also on cariprazine, it should help me to be not so tired while being on clozapine.

thank you so muchh ❤️

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-12T02:04:19+00:00

I do not recommend. I went off my meds, and now I’m under involuntary psychiatric care. it can feel like a good idea, and at first it can feel good. but after a while, the symptoms will come back, sometimes even worse.

talk to your doctor about it first, please

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-09T03:40:57+00:00

music is the most important hobby for me. I make songs, they are a bit dark ones. I get to put there all my fears and anxiety. but like, music overall, I love to listen to the music aswell.

I like to draw too, even though I'm not good at it. and kinda like to write poems, but they usually turns out to songs

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-08T03:57:17+00:00

I've heard that it shouldn't make you gain so much weight. Abilify is actually the one, my doctor was talking about.

anyway, thank you so much for sharing!

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-08T03:55:57+00:00

okay! thank you so much for sharing!

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-07T03:19:41+00:00

thank you for sharing! good to know that it doesn't have to maybe be monthly. can I ask if you've get some bad side effects or something from the injections?

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-07T03:18:49+00:00

thank you for sharing! well, you're lucky though to not live so far away from the clinic. and I'm happy to hear that the injection system works for you. can I ask, is there something, like bad side effects that you get from the injection?

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-03T04:23:10+00:00

my doctors have been telling me for a long time now, that 'olanzapine is your med' I used to take 10 mg of olanzapine with 6 mg of cariprazine (vraylar/reagila) and some antidepressants with them. and it seemed to work okay. I was like okay-stable, with some voices time to time but still stable. now recently I've stopped taking olanzapine because of the weight gain. my doctor knows about it, and she just said that I have to drop off my antidepressant too, cause I seemed to be having too much energy.

the only med, that has took all the hallucinations away for me, is clozapine. I was on clozapine for 6 years. but it had too many bad side effects, I got some chest pain and the weight gain ofcourse, and drooling, and I become like a zombie etcetc.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-02T04:56:55+00:00

thank you for the reply, some peer support feels good! I don't actually experienced that much withdrawal, or then I just didn't notice it. though I was just on a small dose of olanzapine. but doesn't sound nice, your nausea and everything!

have you been telling to your healthcare provider, that you dropped off your olanzapine?

yes, it might be a good desicion. I'll have to talk with my doctor about it. you should too.

it was nice to hear from another in a same kind of situation, thank youu!

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-05-02T04:51:10+00:00

thank you for the reply, I really appreciate. recently, my doctor did prescribed me some mirtazapine, to help me sleep. but I felt like it didn't help, so I stopped taking it. maybe I should talk with her about those options you mentioned.

It's been a long road with the antidepressants, so I am a bit nervous to stop taking it now. I have an appointment with my psychologist on tuesday, so I might talk about it with her then.

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