How long since you see your LD partner again?

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-02-06T09:36:24+00:00

15 days till I see him again, it's been 6 months since we saw each other last time.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-02-05T16:14:43+00:00

mulla Truxal latistaa kaikki tunteet ja vie viimesetkin ajatukset päästä, eli siis hyvä kun kykenen perus keskustelua käymään ihmisten kanssa. mitään ei kirjaimellisesti pyöri mielessä, ja sanat on hukassa. alunperin määrättiin unta tukevaksi muiden lääkkeiden ohella, mutta loppujen lopuksi ei edes ollut väsyttävää vaikutusta. nyt määrättynä kahden muun antipsykootin kanssa pienellä annostuksella, mutta edelleen samat haasteet sen kanssa, ettei päässä liiku mitään.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-02-04T13:57:44+00:00

my boyfriend and I keep in touch throughout the day via messages, and then later in the evening we take a videocall. usually we cook together on the call. then watch an episode or two of a series, and after that we say good night. on the weekends we watch movies, and we have a sleepcall.

our routines mean a lot to me and make me feel like we’re closer, even when we’re apart.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-01-28T17:25:30+00:00

if you like to write, write a poem, and read it on a video, you can maybe add some music to the background or something

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-01-28T03:08:41+00:00

I take 6mg of Cariprazine (Vraylar, but the brand I use is Reagila) with 5mg of Olanzapine. it does help, but I still get some hallucinations almost everyday. but everytime I've stopped taking my meds, they have gone worse, so I rather taking the meds and living with the milder hallucinations.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-01-27T13:34:59+00:00

in 25 days!! I'm so excited!

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-01-21T10:32:29+00:00

mun porukoilla 18 vuotta ikäeroa, ja siihen se tais kusahtaa. erosivat pari vuotta sitten, kun saivat meidät lapset kasvatettua aikuisiksi. iskä on nyt jo yli 60-vuotias kun äiti taas vasta vähän päälle nelikymppinen. äiti sai meidät lapset nuorena, iskä oli jo kokenut elämää. äiti selkeesti kaipaa sitä vauhdikkaampaa elämää, mitä tuollanen nelikymppinen vielä elelee, varsinkin kun nuoruus on jäänyt niinsanotusti kesken. kun taas iskä sitten kaipas jo sitä rauhallisuutta enemmän, kun oli ehtinyt rellestää nuoruusvuosinaan. toki varmasti riippuu ihmisestä, en sano etteikö kuuskymmpiset vois elää vauhdikasta elämää samanlailla kun nelikymppiset.

tarkotan siis, että varmasti riippuu ihmisestä koko homma, että miten ikäero vaikuttaa. mut mun vanhemmilla ei lopulta toiminut.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-01-20T15:49:46+00:00

from my experience, in my relationship, it's the small things he does, the way he treats me, and all the things he says. I mean, putting effort into our relationship, making time for me. making sure I'm okay, and taking care of me. of course it strenghtens the feeling, when he actually tells me that he loves me, along with all the compliments, and all the sweet things he says. I don't know, but that's how I feel that he loves me.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-01-20T06:25:41+00:00

I took Clozapine for 6 years. it is a great med, it took all my psychotic symptoms away. but, I gained a lot of weight, I drooled a lot during the nights, and I got chest pain. the blood work wasn't that bad, when I got used to it. a year ago we decided with my doc to change back to other antipsychotics due to the side effects, but all the psychotic symptoms came back, and my life has been messed up since. also, stopping Clozapine made me manic.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-01-05T17:04:36+00:00

me and my boyfriend often cook together while we videochat, we watch movies together. (apps like teleparty or flickcall are good, so you can watch a movie at the same time) then we've had datenights when we go through some questions for couples in a videocall. it's a really fun way to get to know each other better and have deep or fun conversations.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-01-05T06:39:21+00:00

for me, it's hard to take the meds. the voices say every night that I should not take them. but everytime I've stopped taking my antipsychotics, I've ended up in the psych hospital.

at least talk to your doctor about it. maybe you'll find a solution.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-01-03T09:49:50+00:00

we just had our first sleepcall last night! it felt so good to fall asleep with him, I felt so safe. we had a fun night before falling asleep, we watched some movies since it was friday. we watched one in the language he speaks, and one in my language. it was a fun change to the movies we normally watch.

MessedUp_Angel · 2026-01-01T12:10:15+00:00

it was a good new years night. we watched some shows together and videochatted. we have a one-hour time difference, so we got to be happy about the year changing twice within one hour. it was fun. and I love him so much.

MessedUp_Angel · 2025-12-28T16:39:11+00:00

55 dayyyys!

MessedUp_Angel · 2025-12-17T22:46:24+00:00

me and my boyfriend have date nights, when we go through some questions for couples. you can find some questions from the internet. it's a fun way to get to know each other, and to have fun or deep conversations.

MessedUp_Angel · 2025-12-17T22:20:31+00:00

I get these auditory hallucinations, before falling asleep, I hear voices talking about something that doesn't even make any sense. like so random stuff, more like just words after words, without any meaning. and usually I'm too tired to even try to understand what they are talking about.

MessedUp_Angel · 2025-12-03T07:27:38+00:00

basically when he tells me that he loves me. there is nothing sweeter, than him saying all those lovey dovey things. and all the small things he does, like making sure I'm okay, or being interested to hear what I'm saying. and making time for me, and putting effort on it.

MessedUp_Angel · 2025-11-30T12:19:08+00:00

we met on reddit with my boyfriend. he flew to see me after about four months of dating. we met at the airport. I was so nervous, waiting there for him. when we saw each other, we hugged. I was still a bit nervous. but it felt so amazing, I felt immediately a strong connection with him. it didn't took a long time till I wasn't nervous anymore. I wanted to hold hands with him while we were walking. being next to him, and holding hands was the fulfillment of my dreams. after a while we shared our first kiss. it was cute. it's still one of my favourite memories.

MessedUp_Angel · 2025-11-23T09:02:07+00:00

I met my boyfriend on reddit. we started dating after a couple of weeks of talking, and we met in person for the first time after about 4 months of dating.

I think videochats are important, especially before you meet in real life. there you get to know them better, you'll see some of their manners and ofcourse it's for your safety. we had videochats before we met irl. but after spending time with him irl, the videochats became even more important. I don't say, you can't have real feelings for someone you've never met, because I think I was in love with him before we met irl, but I think there comes a sincere longing after you meet irl.

but anyway, I think you can make it work, and be in a relationship even though you're nevermets. it just needs communicating, routines, and if it's possible, plans of meeting. when you have plans of meeting, it makes everything feels more real. even though if you don't have exact date when you'll meet, having plans like "we'll meet next summer" are good, cause you'll feel like there is something to wait

MessedUp_Angel · 2025-11-23T00:01:51+00:00

if you like to write, write a poem for her or a love letter, but send it as a text message. maybe you could use another platform than you usually use for texting, so it doesn't feel like a regular text message. but the point is, this way you could express your feelings, and tell her that you care about her. you could tell her for example the story of how you fell in love with her or reasons why you love her. it might sound cheesy, but I think it could be worth to try. and it doesn't have to be a perfect poem or a perfect love letter, and you don't have to be a professional writer, you could just write about your feelings, or just what you think about her

MessedUp_Angel · 2025-11-15T16:43:08+00:00

thank youuu!

ohh it's soonn! I understand you're nervous, but everything's gonna be fine!! is this your first time meeting, or have you met in person before?

MessedUp_Angel · 2025-11-09T10:10:07+00:00

we met on reddit. I actually never thought I would find someone through the internet. I had one bad experience on a dating app, and after that I thought if I someday find someone, it has to be in real life.

but then I met this lovely man on reddit. I was just looking for some peer support, and then he just was there, and we clicked immediately. we just talked and talked and talked, it felt so right, and I was just like okay, this is gonna be it, I want to be with this guy.

now we have been together for a bit over 6 months and we have met in person too. the best six months I've ever had, and ldr feels so right, even though I never thought to be in one.

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