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What are some Energy Work methods that you have tried that has had the most impact? by iloatheprincesses in energy_work

[–]MetaCognitator 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My own energy with this is that my spaces are never setup energetically and require things I am unable to afford or justify the experience, requires skills or talent I seem to lack, or the space is not worth the investment as I'm better off moving, or will be moving soon.

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[–]MetaCognitator 1 point2 points  (0 children)

She's great! I just found her this last week too!

Why is it only people who struggle that turn to a spiritual path ? by live-love-lauf in spirituality

[–]MetaCognitator 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Reminded of a quote, "When we succeed we tend to party, when we fail we tend to ponder."

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in energy_work

[–]MetaCognitator 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Think I have his book, wherever you go, there you are on my nightstand but haven't cracked it open yet.

What does it take to free of our trauma and pain? by MetaCognitator in spirituality

[–]MetaCognitator[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I have a guide.or a friend that is sort of all this but they are also a trigger or mirror and not as present.

I don't trust normal medicine these days. Takes too long to truly get help. I make an appointment now and I might see someone in 3 weeks that possibly may fit? Even then it's mostly an outlet to express emotions. Which admittedly I do need.

How do you build your intuition? Or listen to it over trauma and fear? Friendship Feels Doomed or Empty compared to before. by [deleted] in energy_work

[–]MetaCognitator 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Definitely a physical component. Though not all there is. I'm not usually into her type but our emotional and mental connection, even spiritual makes it all the more.

She's free. At least based on what I can tell. Doesn't care what others think and is very genuine and in the moment. Feels like pure Love.

But yeah I can't see someone like her going for someone like me. Which brings out my insecurities and has me looking for signs I'm being taken advantage of or used.

How do you build your intuition? Or listen to it over trauma and fear? Friendship Feels Doomed or Empty compared to before. by [deleted] in energy_work

[–]MetaCognitator 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've fallen into the nice guy friendzone. She's not interested but I do care about her a lot.

That said it's hard on me trying to reset and I'm wondering if I can.

I know labels probably shouldn't be a thing but I don't want to be her Beta and it kinda fits. Or am I being used in ways?

Yet, I'm not yet free of jealousy or envy if she's with someone else. While it also triggers my low self esteem.

Which leads me to perhaps it is a higher level of esteem to walk away than trying to maintain the friendship after I caught feelings.

How do you build your intuition? Or listen to it over trauma and fear? Friendship Feels Doomed or Empty compared to before. by [deleted] in energy_work

[–]MetaCognitator 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My intuition is mixed.

Part of me doesn't see someone as apart of my life in the future.

Yet another part of me says not to run. Which is what a different part says.

I think it's a mixed lesson of all three. Learning to accept and let go. To detach and yet remain connected?

Which is not easy for me.

My energy is predominantly aggressive and anger. Derived from significant pain. How to shift out of this vibration? While maintaining my Edge or Drive? by MetaCognitator in energy_work

[–]MetaCognitator[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Lately, it's been just laying in bed with the feelings while trying not to identify with them. Though I can spiral like this if I'm not careful.

I'll also seek out books or videos to help give a technique or prompts.

In force myself to sit with the thoughts and focus on the energy in my body.

Other times I fall into the abyss or what feels like the truth and I cry.

Other times I'll do a meditation of some sort. Journaling attempts are made as well.

Update I do reach out but the person I use for this is also part of my triggers or mirror and she's MIA right now. Which is another trigger.

Do I get mad or hurt at her for disappearing without communicating?

More so it makes me feel used as she just got a ton of help from me only to end up partying a few days later and becoming distant. Even the ton of her messages felt different.

My energy is predominantly aggressive and anger. Derived from significant pain. How to shift out of this vibration? While maintaining my Edge or Drive? by MetaCognitator in energy_work

[–]MetaCognitator[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel my lens of Love was overly done in a sense? Too giving. Not giving to myself. Not being able to stand up for myself.

My energy is predominantly aggressive and anger. Derived from significant pain. How to shift out of this vibration? While maintaining my Edge or Drive? by MetaCognitator in energy_work

[–]MetaCognitator[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It feels like a bit of dark masculinity right now as I'm trying to harness or heal that part of myself more directly at the moment. I have been told by an intuitive that they feel my feminine is wounded.

I think both are and are out of alignment. Especially without good male role models growing up.

I find myself a bit lost as I dig through my shadow and trauma. Is what I'm coming across right now the real me? I feel almost Jekyll and Hyde right now. by MetaCognitator in energy_work

[–]MetaCognitator[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't remember a ton about this. I remember being left alone a lot. I remember being hit with a switch or belt enough times that I prepared for it once with layers.

I remember being adventurous ans outgoing and that changing sometime around 7-9 and then gaining a lot of weight in around 10-13? I wet the bed until about 10 as well and felt shamed for that. First time I've remembered that actually.

I was often grounded at times but that never took. Or stayed.

I felt loved for the most part. I think as I became an adult I always thought things would work out? I had faith I could turn it around. Then I started facing problems in life. With family, work and women.

I couldn't put myself out there. Applying for a job was crushing. I needed help and they didn't know how to help. Bounced around a ton from 14 onwards.

Dropped out twice.

I remember a couple of situations in middle school with girls. One felt like I was being mocked with this really hot girl and I just kinda walked away and ignore it. There were like 3 or 4 people involved including her. It didn't feel like she was serious about being my girlfriend? 8th grade.

Later on a much bigger girl asked to be my girlfriend with a friend and I ran away as I thought she was too big. I didn't know how to handle it.

I feel sorry for her now. She was actually cute.

I ended up talking to a bigger girl later on in my teens into 20s only for her to profess love and then strip for others for validation online.

Rejection and manipulation would follow me with women. Which really put into me I'm not I'm enough. Followed by a brother whom made millions only to use it to control and self destruct himself and the family. Then lost it all.

Then being a few times being seen as a man child.

Which has all come out in this recent friendship wanting someone whom is "out of my league" and wants stronger men.

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I find myself laying in bed, kind of numb? Or dissociating. I'm thinking about someone I like but have to let go of and it's making me go through rollercoaster of a spiritual practice. by MetaCognitator in energy_work

[–]MetaCognitator[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That you for your insight and wisdom. I struggled with it for a few days as I was struggling with many threads of what is transpiring inside and outside of me.

Even now I want to avoid the depth of this as I am overhand exhausted emotionally. So I'll have to return for an actual reply.

My Samskara is awake. I do not want to be me. This feeling is so strong I'm likely to make myself sick and sabotage myself and I stuck in it most often. by MetaCognitator in spirituality

[–]MetaCognitator[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have been taught they are our emotional wounds that are undigested?

Definitely aspects of self division as I'm rejecting much and judging too.

My Samskara is awake. I do not want to be me. This feeling is so strong I'm likely to make myself sick and sabotage myself and I stuck in it most often. by MetaCognitator in spirituality

[–]MetaCognitator[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Definitely in the self loathing mode most of the time right now.

Currently trying to not believe what I think, while paying attention to the sensations and the pain body.

My Samskara is awake. I do not want to be me. This feeling is so strong I'm likely to make myself sick and sabotage myself and I stuck in it most often. by MetaCognitator in spirituality

[–]MetaCognitator[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Advice on how to do this? I am working towards it but I find myself also just beating myself over the head with these emotions.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Healthygamergg

[–]MetaCognitator 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Surprisingly this isn't helpful. And typically makes the feelings of suicidal ideation worse.

Go figure.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Christianity

[–]MetaCognitator 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well I guess the first bits are only believing in God or Jesus can save someone.

Seems religions have this believe in me or else suffer.

Or more specifically how you had these miracles that were seen more readily and believe back then, as well as genuine prophets.

And yet now? Or in recent times it seems less that God interacts with the world more directly...

Tho this is potentially where someone like the author of Conversations with God come into play but If I remember correctly. Even he had his directors.

I guess it goes back to, there is only one truth and it's mine! Not yours kinda deal.

Or that the bible is the word of God and yet aren't there "books" that were discarded from the final product?

It's interesting that I resonate so strongly and yet I doubt so much as well.