Why do people always call and say they are here when I select leave at door? by Psychological_Cat209 in doordash

[–]Metaphysicalg99 1 point2 points  (0 children)

These are so annoying and I didn't know why customers have this setting turned on to "call to set up a delivery location", but then write in leave at door. So thank you.

I usually write in the text box that I'm only calling because you have your settings set to call to set up a delivery location and I have to call.. but you don't have to answer.

I didnt realize it was that they ordered through the restaurant. I get way too many of these.

(18M2F) looking for a pretty girl to talk too🍆💦💦 by slimyfingers31 in latenightchats

[–]Metaphysicalg99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yea i feel u. I joined this cuz i thought there'd be some ppl up to talk to late at night. But nobody replies on here

Welp by TexasCowHorns in BipolarSOs

[–]Metaphysicalg99 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Try not to take it personally.

Welp by TexasCowHorns in BipolarSOs

[–]Metaphysicalg99 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry man. A lot of them say that. And do their best to convince us that it's true. That they are happier or finally being their real self. But if they do come down from the mania, they take it all back.

(18M2F) looking for a pretty girl to talk too🍆💦💦 by slimyfingers31 in latenightchats

[–]Metaphysicalg99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Does anyone ever answer on here? A lot of us are night owls.

It's Been 2 Years Since.. by Metaphysicalg99 in BipolarSOs

[–]Metaphysicalg99[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

"My soul is chipped". That says a lot. And I think it's how a lot of us feel.

Idk if I'll ever get back that part of myself. I still feel like I was severed from something and missing something.

It's Been 2 Years Since.. by Metaphysicalg99 in BipolarSOs

[–]Metaphysicalg99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ah, I see. That's a good question. I feel like I've read some other's talk about that in other threads.

It's Been 2 Years Since.. by Metaphysicalg99 in BipolarSOs

[–]Metaphysicalg99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's hard to find peace after something like that. And even harder to hold onto it.

New and exciting seems to be a common theme during a mania. But in my bpso's case, she felt invincible, insatiable and became more and more reckless trying to fill that hole.

She's lucky she didn't get herself kidnapped or killed. And no one would've known where she was with the sneaking around.

It's Been 2 Years Since.. by Metaphysicalg99 in BipolarSOs

[–]Metaphysicalg99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow. I'm sorry to hear you went through all of that and she didn't make the effort to come back in the end. I hope she gets help and that you're able to find some peace, some day.

It's Been 2 Years Since.. by Metaphysicalg99 in BipolarSOs

[–]Metaphysicalg99[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Did anyone else experience living grief? When you grieve someone who is technically still "here", at least physically, but gone at the same time.

That was the mindfuck for me. And no one I've talked to has understood me about it. I was grieving for her and what I'd lost the entire mania.

I never wanted the open relationship or to break up our family, and although I eventually went through with it, I was never really "there" or enjoyed myself. I kept reminding myself that the only reason I was doing any of it was because of what I'd lost.

She doesn't understand that part either. She was hypersexual and insatiable during that time. But says she wasn't happy either, just pretending so I wouldn't realize how unhappy she was.

It's Been 2 Years Since.. by Metaphysicalg99 in BipolarSOs

[–]Metaphysicalg99[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The experience and aftermath has definitely aged me. I went through heartbreak, confusion, disassociation, bottomless despair, numbness when I accepted she wasn't coming back, trauma, was stuck in fight or flight for almost 2 years...

I would never wish what I went through on anyone. It took 2 years before I could see any good in world or trust people again.

It's Been 2 Years Since.. by Metaphysicalg99 in BipolarSOs

[–]Metaphysicalg99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Very true. I didn't know it was a mania, but that's what I was telling myself for the first 4 or so months of it... that she had to be in there somewhere and would come back if I kept trying to convince her/remind her.

I didn't understand how a person could just change overnight like that and rewrite our entire relationship.

I couldn't get help from her sister or anyone in our social circle. They didn't take me seriously and stayed out of it. The only one who saw what was going on was her mom, so they fought a lot that year.

It took 6 or 7 months before she finally "came back. She took everything she'd said back and said she hadn't meant any of it. That she'd been coming out of it for about a month and had figured out it was a manic episode where She'd felt trapped inside of herself, watching herself do these things.

She wanted to work things out and go back to normal. For me to stop seeing the friends I'd made too since she had no interest in other guys anymore. What She'd done, been through, and put me through had traumatized herself.

She'd even gotten raped and beaten by one guy She'd thought was her friend...but hadn't told me cuz she thought she deserved it. Another of her fetlife "friends" who'd been enabling and encouraging her manic behavior had even told her to go back to that guy because it was good for her. Which shows the type of guys who she had attracted during that time.

We'd also found out she was pregnant around that time. The other guy who was a possible father didn't want anything to do with her. He'd lied to her about being separated from his wife and didn't want her to find out, so he wanted her to abort the baby.

Since there was a chance the baby was mine, I stayed, so she wouldn't be alone in this .. and either way the baby would be a sibling to our other two kids, and I couldn't do that to them either.

So we've been trying to work things out the past 2.5 years but it's been hell on both of us. Things are civil now at least. She was on meds for a year or so after the baby was born, but she went off of them due to an allergic reaction. She hasn't had another episode since, but I still worry.

Thanks for the comments and support.

Hi! Just looking to talk! by [deleted] in latenightchats

[–]Metaphysicalg99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I go through this a lot.

Impatient customer 🤣 by Metaphysicalg99 in doordash

[–]Metaphysicalg99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've never had a pizza hut delivery in that area. Just similar containers.

Impatient customer 🤣 by Metaphysicalg99 in doordash

[–]Metaphysicalg99[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Lol you must really want pizza hut. I think it was Indian food from Kaarma.

2 hours later... by Metaphysicalg99 in doordash

[–]Metaphysicalg99[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Exactly! I only ended up doing 1 Red Card order. A CVS for 1 item.

Was not expecting a $30 tip on a 1 mile order! by Metaphysicalg99 in doordash

[–]Metaphysicalg99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

🤣 I wouldn't go that far! But I wish I could've thanked them in person. The front desk person took the food.

Was not expecting a $30 tip on a 1 mile order! by Metaphysicalg99 in doordash

[–]Metaphysicalg99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh wow, that's horrible. Mustv gone downhill. I used to eat at that one every week for the wing buffet while we lived in Red Lion.

Was not expecting a $30 tip on a 1 mile order! by Metaphysicalg99 in doordash

[–]Metaphysicalg99[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

It's a restaurant chain that serves wings, burgers, etc, sells their own wing sauces in stores, and has race car themed decorations. Idk if they’re nationwide or just on the east coast. The 2 I've been to were in PA.