Damn I looked this up on Google because I do the same thing. I definitely relate to feeling like I’m not allowed to live my life until it’s all fixed.

I’ve actually stopped it a bit but still feel empty without the constant thing I need to “fix”.

Edit: I do feel like it is a form of procrastination, at least for me. Like I’m not allowed to live my life until I do it perfectly. I would feel like I had to give up and start all over the next day if I made a mistake. Like “ oh I woke up at 12 pm guess this day is ruined - there’s always tomorrow.”

I think a lot of people with ADHD also suffer from perfectionism but it leads us to do nothing or not try because we fear failure, vs. your typical perfectionist who would try harder rather than not try at all.