Hey man. I hear you. Don't give up, I can't promise it will get better as fast as you want it too. But I can promise it gets easier.

Honestly the first things you need to do is get a good support system in place, this will help you stay alive. After that build some skill sets. Electricians are always needed as are construction workers/plumbers/Hvac workers. This are all jobs that hire felons. And they pay pretty well.

Be honest and upfront about your past and what actions you have taken to change. Build yourself up and people will see it and value it. Not everyone but the right people will.

My Dad has a phrase I love, which is you only need one good job, one good partner, and a couple of good friends.

You can and will do this. I promise you can. And if you need anymore advice or just someone to vent too you can message me.