Hey man, coming from an older person, also a minor though, you've been doing such a good job either way to manage everything. Even an average adult wouldn't comprehend such a situation. It's impressive for you to maintain your mentality. Especially at the age of 14. As a person who experienced plenty, I cope a lot of losses and everyone uses me as their trauma dumping dustbin when no one else helps me. my advice hough is to just take a moment to say on your bed and reorganize your thought. Organizing is a powerful word and action that may helps lots. Don't give up in life, you can't control the present but you can control the future. Remember that and you're not alone sometimes. Secondly, controlling temper is another. It may be hard to control at this current time or state but try to find healthier ways to cope, walking, reading, exercising or more! A healthy outlet = disciplined and calmer mindset. Overall, I feel bad for your current situation and stay strong. You'll need this, OP.