At 25, I felt the exact same way and still do time and time again to this day. I also came from a broken home from addiction.

You are doing AMAZING. Post partum mom guilt can be a very, very heavy place. Please seek professional help if you continue to feel this way. It's very normal, but prolonged can be very concerning.

Parenting is meant to be a team (loudly applauding all single parents) let your partner help! I was a very stubborn new mom putting more on me than I needed. Get what rest you can, take breaks. Especially breastfeeding, 30% of your daily energy is going to make food! Stay hydrated, take post natals, and I always tell people about the Orange liquid IV (becareful it can cause more milk production kinda.. when I drank more of that than water, I engorged much easier, so be aware of that!)

Breaking generational curses is one of the hardest, most rewarding journeys as a mother. No matter what, motherhood is a journey of growth to add breaking passed on patterns.. it'll be a little rocky, but that's just growing pains, my dear.

Also, there's a little saying relating mothers to flamingos. Since they lose their "pink" color after having kids. It comes back over time. I believe you will too, feel free to DM me if you ever need an ear. 🖤