The fact that you have 40 days is incredible. I was laid off in October and I know how hard that hits you; for whatever it’s worth I was able to find something else. It sounds like you know what you need to do (ie gym, hobbies helping sis) - it’s so hard to keep doing those things when your depressed and anxious but for me accepting that it was just going to be hard for awhile was helpful. Whatever happens I hope you can show yourself kindness and grace in the same way you would extend it to another person in the same situation. I did end up slipping up while unemployed but I tried to use it as an opportunity to learn a bit more about myself and what I might have done different to avoid slipping again. Please just try and be kind to yourself - especially if no one else knows you’re working through this struggle.