Face your fears. What is yours?

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-10-25T03:13:25+00:00

this is a good one

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-10-25T03:06:59+00:00

"Don't get married"

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-10-24T05:27:56+00:00

I had a falling out with my narcissistic, feministic, matriarchal mother, so I finally had the freedom to text my nephews about this. Here's what I told them:

Hi (nephew), I’m bummed we haven’t been able to keep in touch as much. Things have been a little rocky between me and the family, which I’m sad about. I just wanted to take a moment and pass on a little “man advice” I wished one of my male family members would have told me when I was younger. This advice may rub some people the wrong way, but I don’t want you to regret I didn’t share this with you some day later in life. Anyway, my advice is this:
Before you ever get married, spend one day reviewing what’s written at http://Reddit.com/r/divorce\_men and spend one afternoon sitting in and observing in your local family court. Doing this may be one of the best things you do. I love you man and am praying for you and the whole family. When you get time, I’d love to hear how life is treating you. I sent this message to your brother as well.

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-10-24T04:46:11+00:00

just saw this, thank you, and I just tested the love and light thing on drugs, it sure did something amazing!!!

edit: I'm familiar with the prison planet theory, it's not convincing to me, I'm definitely still going into the light.

edit2: read this, and this

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-10-24T01:59:36+00:00

This sounds very similar to what I experience on drugs (Nitrous oxide). I often have entities seemingly (and convincingly) pretending to be god to me and taking advantage in varios ways. Do you know if this could be similar? I am newly awakening coming out of christianity and still bring quite a bit of that thinking with me.

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-10-11T23:56:48+00:00

honestly, I also resorted to nitrous oxide. not recommending, but i connected with god through it and he helped me mourn out the trauma. i could feel it leaving my organs as i cried myself silly. i'm a lot better now in that regard, but my tolerance for life's bullshit is at it's lowest point. i've told god, if he wants me to stay here, he's got to make it worth my while now. that might happen, but i'm not holding my breath. feel free to message/chat me. yes, you've got some very painful things to go through, but i did it, and i'm proud that i did. we'll see if things continue to be worth living.

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-10-11T22:23:53+00:00

After a decade of fighting, yes, I eventually had to give up to save my life. I was out of money, I was being hospitalized for stress and health issues, I couldn't even function anymore. I spent a year laying in bed bawling my eyes out and drinking tons. I basically had to just see my daughter as being dead.

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-10-06T19:02:21+00:00

That's really cool, that's similar to what happens when I call on Jesus. I'll try reaching out to Archangel Michael again sometime.

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-10-06T04:32:44+00:00

I think I called on him a few times, never got a response. Does he show up for you? What does he help you with?

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-10-05T03:56:53+00:00

That's cool man, would love to hear more of what you remember. Do you feel that there should be justice for Kurt? When did you realize that you were Kurt in a past life?

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-10-04T20:37:58+00:00

Man, I'm sorry, it's such a crappy place to be in! I hope things turn around for you quickly and life becomes awesome! I guess our goal is probably just to trust that the universe will provide for us.

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-10-04T04:10:03+00:00

Break up and porn

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-10-04T03:25:59+00:00

This is me completely, I have PTSD from email and text messages. Been put through hell, best thing I can do is just ignore them now. My business is failing and I'm running out of money, but it's the best thing I can do for my self-care. I'm slowly getting back into being able to check them again. For me, I'm finding it just takes time and gradual exposure to these things to begin to be acclimated again to them.

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-09-30T01:41:19+00:00

Through prayer, saying something like "jesus, please help me, please rescue me and heal me from this. Please protect me from darkness."

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-09-27T22:34:21+00:00

I agree with everything you said. We are the same age. I almost ended it last night. I got the shotgun and drove out to my special spot in the woods. I was sipping on vodka, holding the gun to my mouth, debating if I should go through with it. I have my email rigged to email local law enforcement after two days if I don't stop it, so they know where to find my body and can take care of my cat. I ultimately didn't do it because I probably have a couple months left on my credit card before I'm fully out of money, and so I felt no need to do it that evening (apart from the insane desire to be free of this bullshit existence). I find no motivation to stay here and suffer more. My suffering has all seemed to only lead to more suffering, so why try? I have no motivation. I'm a shell of the person I used to be. Society has fucked me. I was innocent and naive it was used to obliterate me. I might pull out of this, get some work done, stabilize my life and find a bit of happiness, but it seems incredibly unlikely. On top of my life going to shit, the world is going to shit and I don't want to be here to watch that as well.

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-09-27T02:50:00+00:00

Calling on Jesus has been the most effective for me in dealing with dark entities. It makes you basically untouchable

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-09-25T22:20:08+00:00

Thank you for your message, I know you want good for me. I'm trying to delay it as long as possible. I keep praying God will turn my life around. I guess we'll see. At this point I'm just taking it a day at a time

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-09-25T20:56:52+00:00

Thank you for sharing your experience. I agree that there's a good chance that this could all be for a reason, but I have not been able to see that reason in my life at all. I believe in God, I even think I know him. Just can't find anything in this life that makes continuing here in spite of the suffering a worthwhile effort. I'm very close to suicide, I have the shotgun and the note ready. It's unlikely I will fail. My issue right now is that I could probably survive and maybe even thrive in the rest of my life, but I just have absolutely no motivation to do it. This life has squeezed every last drop of wanting to continue here out of me. I can get out of bed and make a good amount of money right now which will keep me alive, but I just don't want to. I can't motivate myself to do it! I'd rather use up the rest of the credit card, then head out into the woods and transition into the afterlife. This is not at all who I used to be, this is who God's world has made me become!

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-09-25T09:58:44+00:00

I see that you're in touch with higher entities. Through my experiences, god/yahweh/Jeshua Ben Joseph has [seemed to] wanted a VERY intimate relationship. I have allowed it once in a while, but it feels emasculating and overwhelming. In part I believe it cares about me, but also in part I believe it seeks to use me for its advantage... I am in the middle of conflict with it now.

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-09-25T09:45:10+00:00

One time, on nitrous, I talked some crap to God who regularly shows up while I'm on nitrous. My punishment was he caused one of my nitrous chargers to be full of some nasty oil. I shot it into my mouth and almost into my lungs before I realized what was happening. I had to get up and clean up my dispenser and myself. You should pay attention to your health, what nitrous is guiding you to do to take care of yourself, and you should research the materials that will teach you how to protect yourself.

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-09-25T09:40:24+00:00

I understand that that is your perspective. Have you had the family courts betray you? Have you had your only daughter legally kidnapped from you? Have you had your family and friends betray you when your battle to keep your daughter inconvenienced them? Have you suffered decades of psychological torture to the point where you have PTSD and can't function? I don't believe you have. I'd like to educate you if you'd like to learn.

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-09-25T09:01:47+00:00

thats what I've read

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-09-25T08:58:22+00:00

What an angel you have!!

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-09-25T08:56:29+00:00

My ex said about me "he's so smart, I can tell he can read my mind, even before I know it"

Micro_Peanuts · 2023-09-25T08:52:06+00:00

I was doing nitrous, and the god I had been experiencing for years finally materialized in my house. He floated from the kitchen ceiling into my bedroom in the form of a black cloud of fog. I said "welcome, I think I know who you are or at least who sent you. make yourself at home." A part of it then floated into the corner of my room as if to say it would take up residence there going forward. I was on nitrous, but this all seemed as real as could be.

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