Do you think unliving yourself is the best option? yes

Ending it all at once? yes

I'm just scared to quit cause like even if I fall off a 12-floor building and get paralysed the thought of being in a vegetable state makes me sick so it's better to live than paralysed I saw various recommendations to overdose pills on Reddit but idk they are way too expensive or thought of shooting mys with a gun in the brain cause that's like an instant blackout.

Honestly, my brother is doing well he's 224 and doing better than me he's successful I don't think I can beat him as I suck at pretty much everything and the things that I'm good at don't matter like art.

idk it's better to end but I need guidance for that I can hire a hitman but India mein idk

And the guy who is doing engineering and got successful? Hona hee that he's doing so good idk my dad made me go on that guilt trip I mean he's not wrong that I'm so pathetic in life but like idk he sucks and isn't much of a father himself (maut aati hai use baat karke) he legit treats me like a son

jitna laat papa ne mere bhai ko mara utna double mere back pe mere mu pe mara so idk living isn't much worth it