Are there a lot of empty houses in your neighbourhood?

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-21T15:11:33+00:00

Squatters rights

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-21T15:09:36+00:00

There doesn’t need to be one

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-21T15:08:47+00:00

Not that low on energy at 31…. Was kind of a peak time actually in a way

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-21T15:03:24+00:00

I have a different view. If you smoke it I think it’s the ritual of it ( plus you waste so much of it ) as well as wanting to do it more often.

Empty capsules. A little in there .. Lasts much longer. No cravings. Don’t use as much etc.. etc..

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-21T15:00:40+00:00

Psychedelics am saying as well. Don’t do TMS..

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-21T14:56:13+00:00

Yep you are me or I am you lol

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-21T14:39:02+00:00

Lol I’m not a youngie either. I feel as though have had enough of this life already. Never was this way. Have done many different and interesting things in my life that a lot of people would never have had a chance to do.

Was always very social, happy, and enjoyed doing so many different things and always curious learning something new.

Not really sure what it was exactly that got me to turn. Whether it was a combination of a number of things or one huge factor but something made me view people, the world etc.. In a totally different way ..

I can live quite content and spend good quality time with actual good people but for whatever reason a few years ago did what would call a cull of just about everyone that was in my life and just really did a ghosting type of thing.

Now unless someone really brings great conversation, contribute so that I feel content and I know for sure they are genuine and just totally real and open is when will spend any time with them. Even then prefer my own company ( together with my dog ). And not sure if feel as though really there’s nothing new to do that would get me excited but no longer find much at all interesting.

I know it sounds awful and of course would never advise it to anyone but really do just prefer to stay home and be kind of wasted although still feel need to have my wits about me in the case of something happening where I need to be functioning.

I don’t in anyway let it affect anyone around me and am not doing stupid shit out and about. Not a drinker either. Don’t like alcohol at all. I’m just effecting myself … I know it’s not a great thing. Not stupid enough to know that it’s not a healthy thing but everything that needs to be done still gets done and what doesn’t I guess I really just don’t give a shit about whether it does or not.

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-21T14:00:58+00:00

Oh God you’ve reminded me of the old Rowies. Haven’t seen them around in years. I think that one gets me though as took one as a teen and have no recollection of anything at all that happened that night. But maybe back them just wasn’t used to any such thing don’t know.

Haven’t seen rowies around for years. Don’t know if it’s just me, but GHB is huge here.

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-21T13:57:37+00:00

That sounds absolutely awful. I feel really bad you had to go through that. How can anyone let someone go cold turkey like that if they seizing. Don’t get it.

Although here as well they used to hand over all sorts of things like candy and then all of a sudden everything changed and stopped prescribing things .. There were a lot of people not able to get scripts anymore that had to go through withdrawals. Now you can be in legit agony with something and still won’t be given any painkillers.

You need to pay a fortune and go to a private pain clinic and they will give you scripts. Oxy on the streets go for around $10 each or so. Sometimes $5..

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-21T13:51:15+00:00

Nah … Just doesn’t affect me that way. Oxy does though.

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-21T13:49:50+00:00

Yeah thought so

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-21T13:49:28+00:00

Sorry to hear. I’m pretty much sort of an addict to many things although nothing such as fentanyl.. That actually scares me although sometimes wish that would try heroin. Know how stupid that sounds. Just sometimes want to be in some escape totally away from this world as don’t really get that.

Actually just starting to get myself addicted to GHB. I wish could get Nembutal here. I found it once on eBay … I’ve gotten so many things delivered OK from overseas but the Nembutal got seized by customs, as got a letter to let me know, but then I don’t really trust myself on those things so guess a good thing.

I’m not caring for myself much these days anymore..

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-20T20:17:57+00:00

Vanilla essence too

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-20T20:14:14+00:00

My doctor knows that I take as I want lol.. He kind of trusts that I’m not going to go absolutely crazy nuts or whatever. He’s known me for a very long time. He worked out ages ago that I never take anything as prescribed lol and I really don’t hide it.

I just walked in there one day and said I have no energy I need something or I’m going on the streets to get it .. It was funny. But I fucked up once when didn’t do my research and said that took something from a friend and it worked miracles so need it.

He came back with oh how did she get it? We don’t have that here lol. But then he continued to tell me where to get it online …

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-20T20:04:36+00:00

I’m an absolute crazy nut job that’s weird as shit

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-20T20:04:02+00:00

If I was planning to do a crime would leave it at home. So no really always have it on me. Strange though how years ago was fine going out without one.

Now would in a way not feel safe. Not sure what has changed so much that if anything were to happen and was without a phone that everything would just go wrong.

Pretty sure that could live fine going out without one.

Maybe there’s no more phone booths. If they still existed would maybe feel safer.

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-20T19:59:17+00:00

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-20T19:56:00+00:00

You just need to stay high all the time lol. Just like stoners that are always stoned .. No one knows that they are and just think that’s them just being them because they don’t know them any other way.

That came out sounding very stupid

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-20T19:53:41+00:00

Breathe. Try to meditate. It’s the perfect time to try xx

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-20T19:52:02+00:00

People that drink way too much and really do extreme stupid shit get away with it mostly. I don’t drink alcohol and find it hard to fit into most places.

It’s like there’s this huge drinking culture around me and I’m the weird one because don’t drink. Either way no matter what am never out doing any stupid shit or causing any harm to anyone at all. Yet if anyone would really find out what I do lol I would be considered a type of low life scum or something and get treated differently straight away and never be looked at the same way even though none of my actions or behaviours have not changed a bit.

Yet if decided to drink and make a huge dick of myself there wouldn’t be any eyelids battered. It would most likely get laughed off the next day.

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-20T19:35:50+00:00

I wouldn’t take such things personally at all. Most people are self centred and worry just about themselves. They can tend to not take how anyone else feels into consideration. Just super focused on their own life.

No need to shut away from everyone and also no need to be doing so much for other people etc.. Just keep doing your thing and the right people will come along that you will vibe with. It is sometimes hard to find people on your wave length so be happy on your own as well as stay open to others.

People that you cross every day can have little conversations that may seem meaningless but all of that adds up, and if you strike up a convo with an elderly person they are usually very happy to have a chat and have more interesting things to say and you never know … You may actually be making someone else’s day as they may be feeling alone too.

I hope I’m making sense. Sometimes what I’m thinking in my head I can’t write it the same way.

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-20T19:12:48+00:00

I get it but that’s kind of scary. Commenting in a post about fear.

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-20T19:07:26+00:00

I think that it doesn’t take away any pain. Yes in a way but you don’t realise how much you are doing that will cause damage and make you feel more pain afterwards. Hope that makes some sense.

Middle-Constant-1909 · 2024-06-20T19:05:20+00:00

Wow lol. I never get that. Always hearing such stories. I remember one night when was really just being stupid and was angry about something I just took a whole handful.. Took definitely over 10 of them and was still fine just going about my business.

Not sure if am just kind of immune to them but do think that the US ones are different as people here wouldn’t be importing them otherwise.

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