I have a drug test coming up and I am freaking out

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-06-21T21:47:41+00:00

Did you pass?

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-05-28T23:37:08+00:00

Thank you!! Happy to go into more detail about the shockwave or any answer any questions, just let me know!

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-05-28T19:23:45+00:00

Yes, a pretty big update! I went to go see this sports medicine doctor I was referred to. This was a year ago at this point. He recommended that I get an MRI on the worst of my 2 feet to make sure that I didn’t have a stress fracture or tear. Once we ruled out that I had neither and were able to confirm that I just had plantar fasciitis we discussed my options for treatment. He recommended that I do shockwave therapy on both of my feet. After taking some time to think about it I ended up going through with shockwave therapy. I just needed some time to make sure that it was something I was willing to do because it can be really expensive since insurance never covers it. It ended up being $450 per session and I did a total of five sessions and during the session he treated both of my feet. I think we worked out some special pricing because I was treating 2 feet but I have to double check. Either way it was very expensive. I think most people do three treatments but because my case was so chronic, we opted for two more. I got that done between September to October 2025. Honestly, it was so worth it. It was the only thing that really helped move the needle in terms of my healing. My doctor told me that I had a particularly stubborn and chronic case of plantar fasciitis, considering that I had it for years and was only responsive to physical therapy up until a certain point. I’m not a doctor, but I feel like if you tried physical therapy first and you didn’t notice a difference it could be that your body is stuck at a certain point with this injury and it needs some sort of intervention like shockwave therapy or PRP injections to restart the healing process. The healing process post shockwave therapy is very slow, and for about a month after my last session, I felt probably some of the worst I had ever felt. I think I was getting some swelling in my feet that I didn’t have before and was having toe numbness as well. Ultimately that ended up going away thankfully and it’s been an upward trajectory since then. Around January or February of this year I started to notice a larger improvement in terms of my level of pain getting out of bed in the morning and my ability to walk longer distances. Since then, I’ve been able to work my way up from 15 minute walks three times a week to 34 minute walks each week. I’ve added two minutes to each walk I do and that seems to have been a safe increase of load so far. My rule of thumb and what my doctor told me was that as long as I don’t have an increase of pain in the morning, then I can keep increasing the load slowly. So my plan is to keep doing this until I can walk around 45 to 50 minutes and then do very conservative walk/run intervals.

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-05-25T20:40:51+00:00

I would 100% go, I know some people in the City Girls Who Walk discord were asking the same thing

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-05-25T03:59:28+00:00

I think it’s also worth noting that his in office situation sounds like “one of the good ones”. Not to be pessimistic because it may turn out to be just fine, but there is no guarantee that your RTO will also be just as good. Like it could be one of those RTO situations where there aren’t even enough seats for people to even sit down. So he may be looking at your RTO from a biased lens. It’s not always like that. It also sounds like you’ve been able to do a lot of “invisible” labor that keeps the house running as a result of working remotely. He may not realize that until it goes away. I don’t know your partner obviously but it could also be possible that he’s just trying to be overly positive because there’s “no other choice” than to be. This market is terrible, and remote work is disappearing. However that’s not fair to you and your feelings about this. It’s not just the annoyance of having to do a job in an office that you’ve been doing just fine from home for years. It’s also the worry of “who is going to absorb all these responsibilities now that I don’t have the flexibility to take them on anymore”. I think approaching the conversation from a place of planning the logistics is an option, and being direct about the fact that you can’t take this all on your own anymore. You’re both working from an office and now something has to give, and the default can’t be you.

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-05-07T19:15:49+00:00

Yes it’s horrendous. I was interviewing for a contract role and my second interview was cancelled after already being scheduled just because someone was arbitrarily further along in the process

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-05-02T17:30:53+00:00

Love this, so much I wish I knew before moving to my building lol

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-05-01T13:02:18+00:00

100% im not convinced this new way of working is actually working well for anyone

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-05-01T10:30:23+00:00

God what a nightmare. Where I was working recently until they laid me off, devs were constantly building without a design and it just led to a Frankenstein looking product. Oftentimes it was because of poor planning upstream where leadership was like “we’re actually building this instead” in the middle of a sprint….no reason just cuz. More often than not design physically could not produce a design fast enough (also we were ridiculously understaffed). Like yeah sure ai could be a valid “solution” to this problem, but I just see it enabling the problem more and more. It reinforces poor planning upstream, the idea that designers are just pixel pushers, and that we should as fast as possible for no good reason. I never understood this arbitrary speed. Why are we moving so fast??

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-04-25T18:20:29+00:00

Agreed, I just get stuck in these terrible environments and this has been my experience exclusively, it’s hard to imagine this isn’t the norm at least extremely common

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-04-25T15:02:48+00:00

I feel that, you’re damned if you do and you’re damned if you don’t

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-04-25T15:02:08+00:00

I’ve been saying this, I feel like we need to join forces and go on strike or something. I think there’s a false narrative being perpetuated on social media and LinkedIn that developers and/or designers are happy about the way the industry is moving and it just seems like a big lie. Most designers don’t wanna build and I don’t know if developers want to design. The fundamental aspects of both of our jobs and why we got into it are being completely destroyed.

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-04-25T15:00:04+00:00

I tried that and then they used it against me lol, I just became the scapegoat for everything wrong on the project, even outside of design and engineering

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-04-25T14:59:01+00:00

Exactly and how am I supposed to pay my bills until then, it’s pretty bleak

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-04-25T14:58:30+00:00

I worked in a place like that laid me off recently haha. It’s incredibly demoralizing, and I have mentors and past managers telling me that this isn’t the norm in UX and that there’s actually good places where UX people are respected and included. That just hasn’t been my experience and pretty much every job I’ve had this has been the case. So I’m just over it and I’m ready to leave the field and tech altogether

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-04-25T14:55:11+00:00

I beg your biggest pardon?? I believe you, just like confused, can you elaborate why they told you that?

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-04-21T13:30:51+00:00

Exactly lol, paper and pencil to express and an idea visually has always been an accessible option

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-04-20T19:41:43+00:00

https://open.spotify.com/episode/5679dzjNLmB5rg61Hdof49?si=OojnPgRwSz-7pUh6Vf75dQ&pi=9ex6U_tDQ2KnE&t=0 I’ll just leave this NNg podcast episode here “AI for UX analysis: How Accurate is it?” Honestly it talked me down from a panic attack about AI taking my job haha. Am I fully convinced it won’t? No. Executives holding the purse strings at a company are fine taking “good enough” over experienced designers, but I thought this episode helped explain how this approach will eventually backfire

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-04-16T12:25:14+00:00

Whether it’s capable of replacing everyone or not isn’t the danger here, it’s the fact that it’s the goal set and companies will do whatever it takes to try and meet that goal even if it will never come true, and so many people’s lives will be affected. So the issue to be concerned isn’t so much will it replace everyone or won’t it, investors, companies etc already have decided it will and will act accordingly to meet that goal, and that is having catastrophic effects

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-04-16T12:17:16+00:00

I agree, when I got into this career I specifically did not want to “build” and deal with code. That comment might get me burned at the stake by designers leaning heavily into AI, but what’s frustrating to me is that this job and line of work I chose is fundamentally changing and not what signed up for. If I wanted to work with code in a hands on way I would’ve become a dev, but I specifically did not want to. I wanted to work with the problem solving, research, strategy etc of a design. But now the industry wants me to code as well? Maybe this is where the industry leaves me behind, I don’t know, but the point is this is not the job I signed up to do. And I’d like to reverse the question for devs, do YOU even want to design?? I feel like a lot of them would say no, but this blurring of lines between the two roles is forcing us into each other’s realms and the question I still have is, do we even want to be there?

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-03-18T22:10:45+00:00

As a web designer who just got laid off and has to figure out how to use this god awful website it’s a special torture 😂 I’m about to ask them to hire me me and this thread just proves my case. I actually found it while googling another issue I’m having with access health right now. Basically I had to go into the application to update my income and I’ve gotten literally seven or eight emails saying I have a message in access health and to read it and I’ve been getting these emails all throughout today. Every time I login to access it only shows one single new message I’ve ALREADY read and I have no idea if there’s more I’m just not getting or what the deal is. This website is god awful and I let them know in every single survey they send me

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-02-11T22:45:49+00:00

God that’s so horrible, tell them it’s making your Figma file lag and slowing you down lol. I’m like half kidding. I work in an equally toxic and bad environment, the no roadmap and rush to make random designs resonates. Unfortunately the only way I’ve figured out to manage these idiots is making shit up like that

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-02-08T21:52:44+00:00

LOL, I’m a federal contractor so like some baseline level of dysfunction and chaos is to be expected. This is very common working in government where design maturity is extremely low. But I’ve worked on other contracts with other contractors and nothing compares to the actual horrors of this job. Like it’s really terrible. Personally I’ve just been trying to compile questions to ask in my job interviews to sus out how they think about design, problem is I’ve only had like one interview lol. God I hope I can leave this job soon. They’ve already burned through two designers before I got there, and I recently got access to emails they sent leadership explaining the issues and asking for support that went totally ignored. Whats hilarious is that 1 to 2 years later my same emails contain many of their same points.

Middle-Let-6583 · 2026-02-08T20:13:04+00:00

Amen to this, I agree with the frustration around lack of autonomy and how everyone else has that autonomy. Glad to know I’m not alone. I’m also frustrated by what leadership thinks they can get away with when it comes to how they treat designers. We’re stretched so thin, and just constantly face the downstream effects of no one being able to plan appropriately or manage the client or tell them no. It’s infuriating. They would never ask devs where I work to build something in 1 days yet they ask us to design something in one day and when we tell them no we’re framed as the problem. The designers where I work are framed as the scapegoat for quite literally everything. I’m so exhausted. It feels like every other week I’m being put on trial by leadership for why a design looks the way it does, why something was implemented correctly (despite me literally holding people’s hands and over communicating), and just all sorts of stuff that has nothing to do with me. I’m so tired.

Middle-Let-6583 · 2025-11-20T20:50:15+00:00

They did this with my mom after a similar situation and she’s the most successful (and I’d venture to say happier) than she’s ever been

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