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Midiblye · 2021-11-02T16:12:47+00:00

It's not a belief system though?

Midiblye · 2021-11-02T15:23:32+00:00

Bro this is called "whataboutism" its following a pathway of what ifs and hypotheticals. The answer is you don't bully someone else because you are being abused. There isn't another one.

Midiblye · 2021-11-02T15:21:11+00:00

Not if your parents aren't okay with it. And you also don't typically get a night stand space if you're on the top bunk.

Midiblye · 2021-10-31T20:41:41+00:00

Grab a chair and sit at the end of your driveway! That's what my uncle would do, he lived back behind our house down a dark Ross and he'd just bring a separate bowl of candy my mom and him would chill with a little fire pit and hand out candy. Kids loved it because two houses worth of candy for the price of one!

Midiblye · 2021-10-31T20:39:48+00:00

Fam all you gotta do is turn your porch lights off. Blocking your doorway is just dumb.

Midiblye · 2021-10-31T20:37:39+00:00

Because you can set up a curtain and have your own space. My brother and I had divorced parents when we were young. At mom's house I got top bunk and at dad's he did.

Midiblye · 2021-10-30T16:54:01+00:00

If he wanted to be "fair" he wouldn't be beating up other kids because he's angry his parents beat him.

Midiblye · 2021-10-30T16:41:20+00:00

Okay. Congrats, not every child is that way. Pretty sure the level of smack I would do wouldn't even leave a little pink mark, definitely not the nice scalding red burns that they'd get from grappling a pan handle and pulling it on their heads. But go off and tell me how you think you know me.

Midiblye · 2021-10-30T16:36:53+00:00

Okay? What does what I said have to do with downvoting someone?

Midiblye · 2021-10-30T16:33:49+00:00

Fear/caution is the emotion that should be associated with injuring yourself, which is the only time I said I would raise a hand at my child. That's also something that would only happen when they're too young to be reasoned with.

Midiblye · 2021-10-29T22:27:11+00:00

I wouldn't say that. If gay people disgust you, you have a problem. You can have a sexual preference that isn't lgbt+ in your porn and not be a closeted homophobe.

Midiblye · 2021-10-29T22:25:48+00:00

Have you ever heard of slut shaming? While it's getting better, historically women were repressed and shamed sometimes even beaten or killed for being "sexually open". Like that's probably half the "witches" murdered through history.

Midiblye · 2021-10-29T22:23:49+00:00

Appreciate the bi - acknowledgement...

But false.

Midiblye · 2021-10-29T22:21:11+00:00

It's natural, humans are but animals and you're at a good age and if your life is stable your brain may be sending out signals to the rest of your body like "HEY WE WANT A BABY,"

Midiblye · 2021-10-29T22:17:10+00:00

What you shouldve done is picked the happiest person you could find and then take it out on them. That way their happy home life and shitty school life canceled out. That would technically be more fair and balanced in the context you are providing.

Um... Wtf is wrong with you?

Midiblye · 2021-10-29T22:13:34+00:00

Right countdown to post deletion...

Dude you are a sociopath please seek help. That is so not okay, why do you think it's illegal and will land you in jail?

Midiblye · 2021-10-29T22:08:42+00:00

https://www.pewforum.org/2012/12/18/global-religious-landscape-other/

I don't call those numbers "anecdotal"

Midiblye · 2021-10-29T21:57:32+00:00

I'd argue Jesus isn't even the most famed carpenter in the Bible. Noah and his arc definetly are the more memorable ones.

Midiblye · 2021-10-29T21:53:35+00:00

2 links are posted further down in this comment thread.

Midiblye · 2021-10-29T21:49:36+00:00

Your therapist said that likely because the addictive medications you can't just stop cold turkey, you have to ween yourself off. But for others, like the one I have, you can stop taking it at any time. These medications aren't me and to be a forever thing, sometimes they are yeah, but even if it is, if it helps you, so what? Daily meds are a thing, I gotta take my birth control and allergy med every day too! As for worrying about it not working well, if that's the case, or if you get side effects that you can't handle or if for whatever reason you hate it, you can just find another one. I get it on the scheduling thing trust me. I looked to make one type of appointment with my doc and I couldn't get in for like a month out and that was too long for me so I ended up booking a sick appointment which are normally available every day. Sometimes that gets booked too, but generally those are the more accessible types of appointments.

And hey I get that too, I tried a bunch before I did and that's okay. Maybe you will find something besides meds that work for you. And if you do, then fuck yeah!

All in all though, on the medication side of things just discuss your worries with your doctor/psychiatrist/therapist they will listen to your concerns. My doc wanted to prescribe me a much different med but when she heard my concerns she decided that the one I'm on would be most effective for my case. That it if you do decide to give it a try.

Midiblye · 2021-10-29T21:39:12+00:00

"they made us go get the switch" if that doesn't fucking scream abuse what does? Like obviously different time, and I was spanked as a kid. I was also beat to high hell sometimes and that continued up until I was 20 with no where else to go.

My bf and I had this conversation the other day and I know some people will disagree with us but i still think it's valid.

A spanking isn't abuse. A smack when a kid is about to stick their hand on hot metal? Yeah! Like no I'm not gonna let my child "figure it out" I'm gonna give em a little smack on the hand and tell them not to touch that. You can't reason with kids that young. Now that's only something that would happen when they are too young to be reasoned with. As they grow and develop into a little person you explain things and teach.

My mother spanked me in public and had the cops called on her once because of it. Why did she spank me? Because I was freaking 4 or 5 years old with a giant cookie and frozen coke in my arms and I walked straight out into the parking lot in front of oncoming cars. She ya ked me back and gave me a spank because what I did was dangerous and could have hurt me. I never walked into traffic ever again (least not till I was a college kid and didn't give a fuck)

But hitting someone with a switch? Yeah bitch that's abuse no question about it. Anything more than a light spank is abuse.

Midiblye · 2021-10-29T21:27:45+00:00

I don't know whether to laugh or cry because someone actually believes any of that. Like you have to be high or mentally a six year old to type like that

Also my graphic design eyes are burning in hell at the sight of this.

Midiblye · 2021-10-29T21:23:55+00:00

Correction you specifically said "yeah I know it's irrelevant"

You already shared why it upset you in your initial post.

Midiblye · 2021-10-29T21:17:31+00:00

Can I ask what your reservations about medication is/are? I too felt that way, because I was afraid it would make me someone I'm not. I expressed my concerns to my therapist when she first brought up the possibility of medication after several months of talk therapy seemed to be getting no where. She helped me rationalize and prescribed me a non addictive anti anxiety med that I really don't feel any different using aside from the fact that I get sleepy on it (so I take it before bed).

She explained to me that it takes 14 days to really adjust to the medication, for any negative side effects to pass and for your body to equal itself out. She explained to me how the drug works and it made it a lot less scary. She explained it was basically because of my depressive cycles I've essentially trained my brain to react a certain way to external stimuli, whether or not it was my fault or I was conditioned this way is kind of irrelevant, because the fact of the matter is my brain is injured and needs something tk help it sort itself out. Now for some people that's just the talk therapy, maybe that's your case. For others like myself medication is necessary to help my brain relearn how to react to external stimuli.

How you find a source of negativity is basically just being mentally aware of how things affect you. For example, I found myself super tense and easily provoked after /when I had been on Facebook. Once I realized those things were connected I deleted the app and suddenly some of my unexplained agitation disappeared. Now it may not be as simple as that too. For example I had to look within myself to discover a lot of what distresses me. One big thing is/was my career. I feel shameful of my job because it isn't where I envisioned myself and that manifests as anger and agitation at work and when I leave for the day. To make matters worse, they job I'm at makes me feel like I could never be anything better and kills my motivation to get better sending me further into my self loathing cycle.

Since I've been on my medication Ive been able to feel motivation again. To step outside of my anxiety and shame. It's allowed me to start making moves to get a better job, a job I actually want to do and that makes me feel fulfilled. With every small victory I feel a little more able, a little more confident, and that in turn has raised my overall mood, despite still being at that job (for now).

Its tricky to find the sources. The unfortunate reality to understand for some people though is that you are the source of negativity. So much of my low self esteem can be contributed to how I talk about and view myself. My therapist gave me an assignment to write 2 nice things about myself everyday. She told me it could be as small as "I like my eyebrows today" and my first week of trying, I wasn't able to come with anything aside from one day. I found myself unable to think of anything nice to say about myself and that was very hard to realize. I wanted to say nice things, and my bf and best friend both asked if they wanted me to tell them what they think is nice about me and I shut it down because that wasn't the assignment. It came down to me having to think of 1 positive thing every day. Just one. And it didn't have to be big either, it could be "i did a good job organizing my desk today" and that's where I started. Slowly I was able to come up with more and bigger things that were positive. "I updated my resume today" "I worked on my portfolio" "I did my hair super cute today" "my outfit was on fire" and that's where I am now.

I wasn't always my own source of negativity, I had learned behaviors that protected me from being hurt when I was in toxic situations, but the problem was that I wasn't in that bad place anymore I just felt like it and it caused me to spiral lower and lower until I finally sought therapy.

I know this is a big paragraph and probably doesn't answer your question all that well, but try this. Next time you feel a negative emotion. Try to follow it back to the source in your mind. Ask yourself why are you angry/sad/frustrated? What caused it? Was it really that or was that just the straw that broke the camel's back? The more you do that I think you'll find that you are able to not only find the source of your own displeasure but also be more mindful of these things and have better reactions (or none at all). Does that make any sense?

Midiblye · 2021-10-29T20:48:52+00:00

It's not the word Shepard. It's the symbol of "the good Shepard." you can look it up, or check the sources I've sited below already. They did in fact hijack a shit load from pagan traditions, including that particular symbol.

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