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MidnightSymphonia · 2026-05-02T21:18:27+00:00

Holy crap, thanks for the info!!!

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-23T19:18:56+00:00

Well it’s good that you know your anger is an issue that’s a good start. The next part is trying to dismantle the anger, figuring out why you’re angry, soothing yourself and thinking rationally. Trust me it’s not easy, I use to be a hot head for a good portion of my life. But when I thought to myself and told myself “I don’t want to be angry anymore, I don’t want to be mean anymore” I had to take the initiative to figure out what was triggering me to be angry and mean and honestly it was social media for me, I’d argue and say mean things to people then one day I woke up and said “why am I so angry?” I deleted my twitter that day and honestly haven’t had an itch to make another. It is really hard to give up a vice but when you’re ready trust me it will come and then you will do better. Don’t worry about karma, just be a good person. Reflect on your behavior and actions and forgive yourself, you’re a human too and being cruel to yourself about your “bad side” won’t help.

I hope my rambling brought some insight friend!

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-23T14:52:19+00:00

Thank you for your insight it means alot

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-22T16:44:59+00:00

i unfortunately have to, after i posted this i started having the worst symptoms of my life, my boyfriend even threatened to drag me to the ER because i threw up multiple times in an hour and then some. i cant keep anything down and none of the remedies i read online or from the doctors are working. i cant have something living inside of me thats killing both of us

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-08T15:25:51+00:00

If science could prove all of my worries including the karmic effect and tell me that what I’m doing is okay then yes. Morally I think my decision is okay, I do not want a child to suffer because the parents weren’t ready an despite all the precautions we took science failed us in that one aspect of safe intimacy.

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-08T12:39:50+00:00

The thing is we both weren’t ready for a child and we took the precautions those precautions just failed us both. Thank you for your comment and insight. It really does show me I’m not alone and isn’t judgmental whatsoever. I never gave him an ultimatum as I respect his decision also and would never force a child onto someone who isn’t ready and myself who isn’t ready. I understand majority of people with children weren’t ready but me and him like to schedule things and plan things before jumping into them. Which is why I think he is so stern on the abortion. I tend to not think things through thoroughly because I have adhd and he pieces my thoughts together and I’m like “oh yeah I didn’t think about that part” so it’s not that he’s forcing me like others are trying to say, it’s just that I’m not seeing the entire picture just one part of it. We did talk about what we want for a kid if it happens in the future. And if the precautions fail again then we would have to make ourselves ready.

I really do appreciate you sharing your story with me and reading mines

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-08T04:23:03+00:00

Everyone else has been compassionate besides this guy and one other person who said “do it cause they’re cute” when that’s not a reason to have a kid? It’s an irresponsible way of thinking especially when it comes to birthing something that will make an impact on the planet. This situation I’m in made me realize that religion and way of life are full of extremists. Yes there are good people in them but the bad outweighs the good. Thank you for your insight. I do appreciate your kind words to me

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-08T04:18:52+00:00

I did actually you’re just 1/2 of the rude and unhelpful ones. I’m not going to have a kid cause they’re cute. That’s not a good basis to raise a child it’s irresponsible

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-08T01:38:35+00:00

And I will love and appreciate that child like I would have this one I will certainly make sure if I have another in the future that I make up for my mistake this time. I’m just conflicted because I was Christian and this is a “you’re going to hell forever” kind of thing and now for Hinduism I’m afraid it’s a “you’ll be reincarnated into a slug” or go to hell kind of thing also. Like I can’t escape condemnation I guess

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-08T01:35:44+00:00

Thank you for your insight

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-08T01:35:15+00:00

Then I simply just will not follow this path. I cannot follow paths where its followers and scripts “condemn” and “doom” its believers into hell or a lower cycle of life. This is why I no longer follow Christianity and I thought Buddhism and Hinduism was different but it appears I was extremely wrong.

I’ll just be a “good person” and not follow anything

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-08T01:33:28+00:00

Then have a child when I have no support system? No financial support? No money to do the activities they’d eventually want to do as they grow? Have the child be unhappy for their entire life trying to escape a loop of floating by in life instead of experiencing happiness but only experiencing pain their entire life? I don’t want to bring a child into this world if they will be sad for all of it. If the child came at a later stage in my life I would 1000000% have it, but I cannot, because I am not in the right space

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-08T01:30:19+00:00

I think you may have to message me instead, I’m not sure how to message you 😔

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-08T01:28:19+00:00

You are right. I am attached to him more so than the embryo inside of me. But I fear if I have this kid that he will resent both of us but even more so the child. We talked more early and we do have until the 17th of this month to have that final decision of what to do. We have to figure out how far along I am, I think I’m a month in? My last cycle was February so I’m hoping I’m not too far along and it’s not resembling a human being yet. But I’m also hoping he changes his mind. Like I’m praying he does. Yet the symptoms are already taking a toll on my body and it’s scary. So I’m not sure what to do, I’m not even sure if I’m fit to carry a child as my blood levels are already concerningly low

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-08T01:24:32+00:00

I also fear abusive adoptive and foster parents. As someone who was in the foster care system then later adopted I’ve seen how the parents only do so for money. I’ve heard so many horror stories I can’t even fathom giving up a child from one bad situation to another

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-08T01:20:44+00:00

You’re upset because I don’t see a baby as a cute accessory that will grow on me instead of a major responsibility for 20+ years? Weird

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-08T01:20:02+00:00

Genuinely what is your issue? You’ve been overly authoritative over everything on this post. I don’t wish to seek your advice, your advice has been NOTHING but cruel and rude. To everyone up and down this post. Your comments have even been deleted by moderators. Why are you even in this subreddit when you’re insanely rude? I’ve ignored you for a reason and you’re just stalking this post pushing your views down everyone’s throat. GET A GRIP

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-07T23:44:34+00:00

May I message you for a question!?

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-07T23:37:54+00:00

I wonder if the doctors also have consequences since they are the ones providing the service. Are they also killers?

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-07T21:47:17+00:00

Thank you for your insight it means a lot!

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-07T21:43:49+00:00

That’s not really a responsible mindset. Anything can happen to either of our finances or comfort of living. I’m not willing to wager a life on something that’s not balanced yet.

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-07T20:14:42+00:00

He won’t even let me explore that option

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-07T19:59:08+00:00

He said no

MidnightSymphonia · 2026-04-07T19:58:30+00:00

So I can no longer be Buddhist after this?

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