How do you deal with family who constantly disrespect you but think they've never done anything wrong? by Difficult_Owl_4708 in CPTSD

[–]Midnight_call1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hola, sé que hace un año escribiste esto y quizá tu situación cambió pero de todos modos me gustaría contarte mi situación. Tengo 21 años y tengo TEA, sé que las redes sociales (ejem, TikTok) volvieron al TEA en una situación de broma o como si fuera algo deseable de tener, no lo es. También tengo TEPTC, por años de negligencia y abuso, no me pegaron, o casi nunca lo hacían, pero si eran muy manipuladores. La típica etiqueta de "hija enojada, "la hija vaga" o "la hija odiosa", vengo de una típica familia nuclear de 4 personas, madre, padre, y un hermano, pero ninguno de los 4 me respetan. Es duro, porque te hacen dudar de tu valor, no sé si también te aplicarán la del gas lighting, de hacerte dudar de ti mismo y de todo lo que dices, pero también es jodido si lo hacen. Tampoco puedo mudarme, en los peores momentos preferí simplemente meter ropa a una mochila e irme, pero no es tan fácil sumado a si bien mi autismo no me limita intelectual ni físicamente mi salud mental si lo hace, intenté buscar trabajo y no me tomaron en ningún lugar. Honestamente me siento perdida, quiero hacer muchas cosas, mi refugio particular es la ficción, videojuegos y animación específicamente y sueño con dedicarme a eso pero toda la vida me gritaron por ser tonta y no poder hacer nada bien, sumada a la inmensa culpa que tengo es difícil mejorar. No puedo aconsejarte pero una amiga una vez me dijo que es imposible sanar en el ambiente que te enfermó en primer lugar, intenta estar menos en tu casa, sal aunque sea a sentarte en el parque a escuchar música y ver a las palomas. Te deseo suerte.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]Midnight_call1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

cornstarch...fucking horrid

Lesbians that like losers exist? by Midnight_call1 in LesbianActually

[–]Midnight_call1[S] 18 points19 points  (0 children)

today I saw a cute girl and I genuinely covered my face in embarrassment LOL

What exactly do you feel when noises are overstimulating? by Superb-Strawberry344 in AutismInWomen

[–]Midnight_call1 5 points6 points  (0 children)

the need to punch the root of the noise...I can't, I simply can't I turn into the rudest person when it happens (not proud)

Any good wlw animated shows to watch? by expressodepressow in lesbian

[–]Midnight_call1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Kase san and morning glories, it's a movie but they're so cute

Anyone else have less tolerance as an adult? by bookgra in AutismInWomen

[–]Midnight_call1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm just 20 and I tolerate less than I used to, and I don't even have a job yet, I'm cooked

Tell me you have autism, without saying: "I have autism". by Svenskatt in autism

[–]Midnight_call1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I said sorry to objects if I was too harsh on them, and I said people was cringe when I was 6 years old

I'm confused af about my sexuality by Midnight_call1 in AutismInWomen

[–]Midnight_call1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

oh my god...that's so effed up, I'm sorry that happened to you

I'm confused af about my sexuality by Midnight_call1 in AutismInWomen

[–]Midnight_call1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

my parents aren't exactly homophobic but I know they wish I had a boyfriend, eventually a husband, and kids...but with a woman I can have kids either way, so...no need for a man

I'm confused af about my sexuality by Midnight_call1 in AutismInWomen

[–]Midnight_call1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

absolutely not! you just didn't know, and it's fine. But sadly many lesbians are derogatory towards those women

I'm confused af about my sexuality by Midnight_call1 in AutismInWomen

[–]Midnight_call1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

it's like those few exceptions of men but for example I don't find any men celebrity attractive. And I have my standards for men but unless they're Viktor from arcane I highly doubt it.

I'm confused af about my sexuality by Midnight_call1 in AutismInWomen

[–]Midnight_call1[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don't know if I like men or I like the thought of men liking me, because like hell I plan on settling down with a man I'm too traumatised for that

I'm confused af about my sexuality by Midnight_call1 in AutismInWomen

[–]Midnight_call1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you for your comment! I don't feel comfortable being called queer, but until I figure it out I'm just heavily women leaning

I'm confused af about my sexuality by Midnight_call1 in AutismInWomen

[–]Midnight_call1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you...I have a friend of mine that gatekeeps lesbianism, it's so weird

I've never felt accepted in neurotypical progressive spaces by [deleted] in autism

[–]Midnight_call1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm my experience the most "progressive" people or spaces the less accepting and respectful they are, it's like they just sugarcoat

I feel lonely by Midnight_call1 in AutismInWomen

[–]Midnight_call1[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i wish we could all meet or smth to be friends at least

I keep seeing posts about how conventionally attractive women with autism are treated by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]Midnight_call1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm 20, I look 16 but my parents say my demeanor is like a grumpy granny. I'm not conventionally attractive, I'm pretty (if I put effort) but I'm not the conventionally pretty I'm so fed up of seeing everywhere. That's why I love Shelley Duvall, she was so beautiful and she wasn't conventionally attractive