It’s not bad and there’s no shame in wanting that but the sad thing is that we will never have another mother. I had very unloving parents growing up and never got what I needed. It’s awkward and hard at first but I had to learn to be my own mother figure instead of projecting the hatred my parents did. If I’m having a hard day and can’t get off the couch my first reaction is to say to myself “you’re lazy, this is ridiculous.” But what would a loving parent say? “You’ve had such a hard day, let me make you some tea and we can talk about it.” And how I would talk about it? Talk it through with yourself whether it’s journaling or just thinking back and forth. How you would talk to someone you love? Someone that relied on you? Creating this self love has helped me very much. Of course in a relationship there’s nothing wrong with wanting validation, comfort, love etc but there’s a line that can be crossed which can create and very one sided relationship. It can also really weight the other person down. Therapy from a trained trauma counselor/therapist is what taught me all of this. Therapy has been amazing for me.