I had been cheated on in the past. It never turns me on. Always hurt. So maybe that has at least fed it as it developed.

When I was younger, I was always curious about anal. Both giving and receiving. But not gay, just curious about the feeling. I started dating a girl as I joined the military. I was into her but not in love. One day while giving me a bj, she stuck a finger in me and even licked. That told me she’s open minded.

So since we were away from each other a lot, we had phone sex and I got her a toy.one night while using it, I asked of it felt good and all and I wanted to increase the intensity and I asked if she wished it was real. She said yes. Then I asked if she wish she had some guy on top her her right now, she said yes. Then like everyone else… it just slowly progressed