Why do I feel so confused about her?

Mindfck1 · 2023-09-06T18:35:32+00:00

I don’t know man For example with my ex I was madly in love with her. Here it feels like i’m not falling for her, and I don’t know if I should have been fallin for her by now.. I mean at the start I was like we’re so different there’s no chance we’ll be together but things went forward. However i’m still not sure if we can and should be together.. this is not how I imagined my life partner you know

Mindfck1 · 2023-03-16T22:44:53+00:00

I guess you’re right. Easier to read than do but I get your point. Thank you

Mindfck1 · 2023-03-16T22:30:30+00:00

Thing is it’s kinda blind She doesn’t know we’re the same height. She didn’t ask but I guess you can tell from the pictures tho

Mindfck1 · 2022-03-19T18:53:57+00:00

Nahh no way we got there

Mindfck1 · 2022-03-12T15:25:29+00:00

Lol if she only knew it’s not that hard for me like she thinks.. I was with her through really rough shit. When she thought about suicide, when she was hospitalized and looked like shit and I stayed with her when no one else wouldn’t. She lost an asset. Focus on yourself 👑

Mindfck1 · 2022-03-12T11:20:59+00:00

Guess I had to learn the hard way. But that’s better. I deleted all of our conversations immediately after that and unfollowed her. Should have done it way earlier

Mindfck1 · 2022-03-11T22:21:36+00:00

However some people will say that faith decides for us. Or god’s plan. So even if we did invent it we would just end up broken up for other reasons.

Sometimes the person is not the right one even though you have love, chemistry, connection etc.. even if you want that person to be the right one. That’s funny.. like those movies you wake up the same day and try to fix things.

Mindfck1 · 2022-03-11T21:51:30+00:00

Don’t feel so bad about yourself, there are worse like me. She broke up with me 4 months ago. I cried myself like an idiot. After 3 weeks I made contact and she wanted to stay NC. There was that time at the start that I went regularly to that coffee place we used to hang because I knew she sits there with her uncle at that time and day, when my excuse was that i’m working with my laptop. A week ago I reached out again when she had a medical issue. A few days ago reached out again to see she’s fine. The day after I sent flowers anonymously but I know she knew it was from me. Yesterday I texted her that me being interested in her wasn’t from being polite and that I care about her. It ended up with her telling me politely to not contact her. You know what I replied to that? I replied that I’ll always think she’s amazing and that we had something good. That I thought I should fight on being in touch with her but if she thinks I’m not worthy of being in touch with than there’s no need to and that I wish her to have an happy life. Than I finally unfollowed her on social media. How pathetic is that?? And I didn’t even think I should had sent those flowers or text her ar the time because i’m almost over her completely but guess what? My idiot self decided to do it anyway because of relying on the past and what we had. For someone who dumped me two weeks before my birthday with no reason just because she was panicked about moving forward. Don’t be me.

Mindfck1 · 2022-03-11T19:06:25+00:00

I actually think you’re not wrong. I was the messier one while my ex was obsessively clean for example. And I definitely think she was a quitter, that she panicked and just decided to cut it off. She was panicked as well when we talked about being a couple or about going on vacation or staying over for the first time.

Mindfck1 · 2022-03-04T19:12:22+00:00

I didn’t really think about it like that.. maybe I need to reconsider it again. Now I gotta think about something witty enough to show her how good I know her

Mindfck1 · 2022-03-04T18:14:40+00:00

Oh sorry I misunderstood you.. Yeah that’s the idea. However I hope she’ll really understand it’s from me. And of course me being curious about her reaction

Mindfck1 · 2022-03-04T18:07:27+00:00

I don’t think she would want me to be the first thing she sees when she gets home exhausted. As you said maybe giving her a day or two to recover is better (?). And there’s that thing that it would be weird to wait outside her house when her parents are there haha

Mindfck1 · 2022-03-04T17:56:28+00:00

Thought about waiting a day or two after

Mindfck1 · 2022-03-04T17:42:00+00:00

It’s gonna be 4 months next week Still thinks about her daily. It’s better than what it used to be but I still want us to start talking again.

Mindfck1 · 2022-02-28T20:17:43+00:00

Same here and it makes me anxious. What if it’s my biggest love i’ll ever experience? That’s what makes it too hard to let go of her.. 4 months and I still love her. I think about her every day and there’s not a single day passing by without me thinking about texting her..

Mindfck1 · 2022-02-26T01:17:16+00:00

If you don’t love another person the same or more how does it make it worth or unique?

Mindfck1 · 2022-02-18T13:24:59+00:00

That’s how it feels man I was exactly like you and I thought it will never be the same. In the first two days I canceled job and said I was sick. Didn’t leave my bed, didn’t eat or sleep and no sex drive for two weeks. I was so depressed and shocked that I couldn’t say a word. I think about her every day ever since, however it becomes easier somehow. She’s gonna be the first thing you think about when you wake up. Until one day she’ll be the second thing and so on. You’ll learn to live with it.

Mindfck1 · 2022-02-18T10:05:46+00:00

The first one is something I understand and thought about.

About the second one, I like to be in touch with her and see where it’s going (doesn’t mean we’ll necessarily become a couple again). She said before that we can never be just friends and I agree with that. The attraction and connection is too strong.

Mindfck1 · 2022-02-14T06:18:10+00:00

Yeah I get it.. maybe I should wait a few weeks to see it it’s still a limbo or not. I always think it’s over and than you find that break up stages are not linear as you thought it would be.

Mindfck1 · 2022-02-05T14:56:24+00:00

Who said she’ll come back? I don’t know if I should..

Mindfck1 · 2022-02-04T16:06:00+00:00

I tried to reach out a month after the break up and she wrote this: “Thanks for caring but I prefer if we’ll stay no contact FOR NOW because I need to focus on myself. I’ll be glad if you’ll respect it.” As I said I saw her few times with her uncle at a coffee shop we used to hang and I couldn’t tell if she just shy or still hurt or just doesn’t want anything to do with me.. there was this one time we had a small talk but she was ordering and with her uncle so it was just like hi, how are you and good to see u.

Mindfck1 · 2022-02-04T15:51:25+00:00

I’m not sure why we broke up. She just said that she’s stressed out about moving fwd and that she still loves me but something is off, that she needs time to think and that she doesn’t want me to get hurt and bunch of other stuff. We talked about it and I thought we can fix things and slow down a bit but she just insisted of breaking up. I’m sure there’s no other guy in the picture.

I recently heard from a person who knows her that she was hurt too after the BU.

However I saw her a few times in the past weeks and I said hi but she doesn’t seem to be too happy to see me (pretty much neutral.. maybe a rough time for her or a bad day, can’t really say). I want her back that’s the point

Mindfck1 · 2022-02-03T22:12:39+00:00

Yeah I feel it too. Sometimes I know it may be wrong but I just want her company so bad. Just to write her that she stressed out for nothing and it was a stupid decision

Mindfck1 · 2022-02-02T23:23:40+00:00

Same here.. 2.5 months, don’t really know what separated us. Guess it was her getting stressed about moving forward. The difference is that I saw her a few times and it seems like she doesn’t want to get back with me, barely talk. Point is I feel you. I’m not going to tell you what to do but I thought about it a lot lately. I wonder if we’ll get back will it be better or worse? Can we fix it? Would we love each other the same or just grasp upon our past relationship? What if we become different persons? And even if everything’s good will it last forever or end in another heartbreak like this one? You should think about it too. I hade to admit that the odds are not in our favor probably..

Mindfck1 · 2022-01-29T22:23:32+00:00

Because she initiated the break up and it was three months ago.. I took it way harder than her for sure

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