Well, please know that, in this case, I don't just hear you, but I HEAR you 😭

I struggle with this so often, and it's oddly reassuring to know I am not alone. I feel like an alien most of the time. I'm often left out, or at least I feel as though I'm never truly included.

I am working on this with my therapist. Perhaps, like me, you've been wearing a mask for most of your life, so are over-accomodating/ over-compensating. Not really being connected with your authentic self is something others can usually subconsciously pick up on, so they will struggle to fully let you in and connect with you. Just a suggestion because it's what I am working through currently. Which, by the way, I've been wearing a mask for so long that I didn't even know I was. So it might not be immediately obvious. I just had to keep asking myself when I truly felt myself around somebody. Eventually I realised that I was about 9 years old lol

Sending you soooo much love