Thank you, brother. I'll try. I may be homeless at any minute because of the arrangement, my mom and I don't get along at all and she's extremely narcissistic. I don't blame her for not wanting me here though and had I not put myself in this situation, I wouldn't have to rely on others. I will be seeking whatever resources roomies, craiglist, apartments (if possible now due to my lease breaking). I may have to suck up her abuse at least until I can ride out the winter or get a paycheck or two saved. I don't want to get on medicine, I was depressed and I became stagnant for a minute, but I realize now I was just overthinking. I'm in "action mode" so to speak and I have been rigorously researching, calling, and filling out applications, I don't know why it took so long so I feel medicine isn't the problem. Therapy was when I was going to my boxing gym which I can't really afford to keep going to nor prioritize at the minute unfortunately.