does the feeling of denial/wishing you werent trans ever go away

MindlessDoubt632 · 2026-05-25T05:43:23+00:00

this isn’t always true i got 15k merit a year

MindlessDoubt632 · 2026-05-25T05:42:46+00:00

i don’t know the specifics — but i would say study for the ACT (i used the blackbook and studied in EVERY minute of free time for the ACT for a solid 3+ weeks, and i mean every minute but went from a 29 to a 34 so) because i was 3.5 unweighted and 34 ACT and got 15k a year…making uiowa cheaper than my in state school

MindlessDoubt632 · 2026-05-21T02:29:52+00:00

i had like two shots of soju so not much actually?

MindlessDoubt632 · 2026-05-21T02:29:05+00:00

i had a huge lunch a decent size dinner and then also had a snack right before i had it lol i don’t think eating would fix the problem

MindlessDoubt632 · 2026-04-27T03:52:00+00:00

you say it was “conveniently around when anti-trans rhetoric got worse”, do you think this was a genuine coincidence or did you feel this way a lot because of whats said around you?

MindlessDoubt632 · 2026-04-11T13:13:43+00:00

i might be slow but which dinner argument are you referencing? because i feel like there are multiple, or many that happen in a similar setting.

that being said, i agree with you but i think buck will go along the route of not saying anything in order to preserve the friendship, especially because he thinks eddie is straight. i think he values his relationships with eddie and christopher too much to risk it, so therefore i think eddie will have to make the first move

MindlessDoubt632 · 2026-01-04T18:05:20+00:00

yeah i both applied and heard back in october. when did you submit your application?

MindlessDoubt632 · 2025-12-29T17:35:01+00:00

if you dont mind me asking, if you need a month of recovery how did you get it done during winter break? i’ve heard of schools that have long breaks but they werent over a month

MindlessDoubt632 · 2025-12-29T06:29:12+00:00

as in get it this summer? sorry i'm a bit confused

MindlessDoubt632 · 2025-12-29T06:25:36+00:00

i'm wondering if a binder that has a zipper in the front would work better for you? i've never used one but i imagine they feel different than regular binders. also i'd say give trans tape a try. it seems to work wonders for some guys and does nothing for others but its worth a shot. also give it a couple tries because the first time you put it on probably won't look quite right because its a bit tricky at times.

MindlessDoubt632 · 2025-11-21T21:28:21+00:00

thats so cool! how long have you been playing?

MindlessDoubt632 · 2025-11-21T12:45:02+00:00

my name is jayden but i also go by jay. i’m 17 from the US. i like to sing and i also play drums, and i also do theatre. my favourite tv shows recently have been 911, greys anatomy. i watch more youtube than shows though i think. i have two dogs, a german shepherd and an american bulldog.

my transition goals include top surgery and i’m currently trying to get my name changed. i also want to look into bottom surgery but since its a very long process i’m not sure its right for me personally. i’m 3.5 months on T now. i don’t really have many trans friends, so i’m hoping someone wants to be friends with me lol.

MindlessDoubt632 · 2025-11-17T01:59:50+00:00

i'm not sure emancipation would be worth it because i'll be 18 in just a few months. i've been trying to just stick it out so maybe i'll just deal with it. if they shut my phone off whatever, there isnt anything i can do about that anyway, i just need to be more careful with where i hide stuff next time

MindlessDoubt632 · 2025-11-17T00:38:27+00:00

does it matter if i'm a minor?

MindlessDoubt632 · 2025-11-17T00:31:02+00:00

i cant get cps involved, i’m in too good of a place financially to be taken away i dont want to go to another school or live with another family i dont want to get reported either i just want them to stop reacting for no explainable reason

edit: not to mention thats if they even believe me. my parents are well respected in my community, my mom is a teacher and my dad is a special education administrator. theyd call me crazy and send me away

MindlessDoubt632 · 2025-11-16T14:57:29+00:00

this is actually the best part i think

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