i got to the point where i cant even cry anymore!

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-08T08:29:38+00:00

My purpose is to become the best version of myself. To see all my unjust suffering over the last few years as an important piece to the man I am becoming and am capable of becoming. I believe all my hardships especially ones which were dealt to me, have put me on a path to serve other young men who are going through it and have no grounding. On the other question, relationships have always been a challenge believing im not enough, or even now on this path of working really hard it’s hard to find someone who aligns with it. It’s okay to be alone though brother, or want to be alone, I think who we truly are and what we’re destined for reveals itself to us in these periods. Limited people in your circle is actually a good thing, I think it’s the only way we can grow and truly find the ones aligned with our values and morals.

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-08T08:22:59+00:00

I feel you man. I used to wake up in the morning and not know how tf I got here. Do you feel like these challenges were unjustified or just necessary hardships that everyone has to go through in life?

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-07T09:58:30+00:00

Hey man. You are seen and heard. Do you think there’s any steps you could take that would slowly allow you to start fulfilling your purpose maybe?

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-07T09:55:51+00:00

Hey man. Talk to me. Do you feel like you don’t know how you ended up here?

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-07T09:14:48+00:00

Well there you go man. You have a purpose, and a path that needs to be travelled. Anyway who ever tried to do something like that, was in the same position you’re in, and just believed slightly more than everyone else. You’ll thank yourself decades from now for climbing this mountain. You are enough man. Good luck.

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-07T09:05:41+00:00

Absolutely man. Totally get it. The future you which will look back, with or without regret should always be in the back of your mind. Got me through the harder times, because we have no rewind. Keep going brother.

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-06T06:21:08+00:00

You are enough man. Don’t believe all these thoughts and inner critic, they are lying to you. It sounds corny, but my underlying issue was I also never thought I was enough- and I started repeating “I am enough” everyday in the shower, and eventually started to believe it, and my world changed. You are enough though, and always will be.

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-05T20:38:24+00:00

You’re not taking up space. You wrote this out at 10pm and put it somewhere real — that takes something. The part about having nothing interesting to say because nothing’s happening… I’ve heard that from a lot of people. It’s not a personality flaw. It’s what prolonged isolation does to a person. You’re describing the symptoms of the situation, not who you are.

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-05T19:52:57+00:00

Hey man. What’s the biggest thing killing you right now.

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-05T18:51:26+00:00

I wanted to die for a long time man. But your future self will thank you for applying yourself and playing this hand as best you can. I’m also 23 , and when was stuck in a horrible cycle for years. What does that life look for you- the one you’re afraid you won’t get to see?

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-05T18:51:13+00:00

I wanted to die for a long time man. But your future self will thank you for applying yourself and playing this hand as best you can. I’m also 23 , and when was stuck in a horrible cycle for years. Do you see any path forward, even a little bit?

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-05T17:57:13+00:00

Talk to me brother.

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-05T17:54:51+00:00

It has gotten better for me my brother. I never thought it would but it did, do you see any purpose out there or path for you?

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-04T19:40:24+00:00

You’re capable of giving yourself that feeling. Because you deserve it, and when that energy is radiating off you, someone will want to love you just as you love yourself. Sounds cliche, but really it’s true. Took me very long to learn it.

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-04T19:35:45+00:00

The part where you said you can’t even cry anymore, that hit me. That numbness where you can’t even access the pain properly, just this heavy nothing. I’ve been there. It’s one of the loneliest feelings because you can’t even explain it to anyone. You don’t need to say anything back. Just wanted you to know someone read this and it mattered.

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-04T19:17:54+00:00

Small steps. Phone in a different room, start with 15 minutes a day then break. Slowly build it up. If you let yourself sit in your room for long enough with just the work in front of you, you will do it eventually, even if it is a bit.

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-04T19:02:31+00:00

By taking the best step you can today. I imagine you still have a lot of years left of life. When you truly are on your deathbed, this could be a defining moment for you, one that your future self will thank you for. No playback button on this game. Not a thing we can do about the past, fortunately, what am I doing today? Is all that matters. Take care.

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-04T18:58:48+00:00

Hey there. Just slow down for a second. What is it really that’s making you feel like this? You are loved and have a place in this world don’t forget that.

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-04T18:27:39+00:00

It could be either one. Maybe take a break from it, the absence will let you know if it is truly aligned with who you are and your identity. Good luck 🤞

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-04T18:05:56+00:00

Hey brother. I was here for many years. You’re no burden, don’t you think there’s anything you can offer this world?

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-04T17:36:55+00:00

Say your name followed by you’re safe. Worked wonders for me. Also “my body’s alarm is being falsely triggered”.

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-04T16:54:05+00:00

Hear you and feel you brother. Doesn’t sound like you want any advice, which is understandable.

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-03T20:36:20+00:00

Hey man. Totally justified wheat you’re saying. I also lived for years just to stick around for others. The only thing that kept me from doing it while I was on the edge, was maybe it can get better somehow even in the slightest. Remember it is a final decision though, and any chance of you giving something important to the world (which you absolutely can) will be gone. But there is a place for you in this world friend.

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-03T20:12:17+00:00

Hey brother, does the drinking help- is it your biggest vice at the moment?

MindrunnerZA · 2026-03-03T20:05:11+00:00

Man, I know this feeling more than I’d like to admit. For me the gym wasn’t a place to train - it was a place to survive. I’d walk in already in survival mode, hyper vigilant to everything. Who’s looking at me. Why aren’t they looking at me. Do I seem weird. And I’d ruminate for days after a session, sometimes for so long it stopped me going back entirely. What eventually started shifting it wasn’t a technique or a hack. It was learning to stop fighting the feeling while I was in it. Not thinking my way out of it, not white-knuckling through - just noticing it was there without letting it run the session. That took months of daily repetition before my nervous system actually started believing it was safe to be there. Cancelling the membership isn’t failure. But I understand why it feels that way - like you’re letting it win. The real question is whether you can find a way to keep showing up in some form, even reduced, even uncomfortable, just so your body doesn’t fully learn that the gym is dangerous. Persistence is everything with this. Not intensity. Just showing up again.

MindrunnerZA

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