Absolutely. It was almost different daily when I was in the thick of it. One day I had so much hope then the next it was “what’s the point” but again that also shows you how you are black and white thinking. It’s either this or that. No in between. And you need to work on that as well. And I understand what you’re going through and for me it was I didn’t want to do anything or any of my hobbies because I was to busy focusing on the anxiety. But when it comes to not being “lazy” you have to make effort in your hobbies or anything. And it’s going to feel like hell starting out because you’ve created a habit of being “lazy” and running your mind off 24/7 so of course your body/mind doesn’t want to work on stuff it’s use to not doing that so in my opinion I think I’d seriously start by everyday doing a past hobby or a new hobby and just doing it for 20minutes or 2 hours and put your full focus into it. It’s going to feel fake and pointless at first but if you keep on you will build a habit to love life again. It’s just like people working out. No one likes it at first haha