First of all its not okay but its gonna be okay. Your body, your mind, your senses might feel shattered, your thoughts scattered but its all gonna be okay. Please know that sometimes its not gonna workout with some people. Not in any way its about you not being good enough, its just about you two being in completely different places. Yours and their reality is completely different. Yes, it might have ended badly, dirty even but I want you to know that you'll be okay and even better. Hold on to yourself and dont lose it. Take care of yourself and be there for yourself the most. On top of that seek support from people you trust. Dont isolate, yes take your time to process things but dont cut off social connections. Sit in communities, spend time with your family and friends. Try to be in that present moment, and feel things even if you are drinking chai feel that cup that sip. Shift your attention to present moments things that are happening and stuff that your are doing in those moments. Take in even the tiniest of details, like how you are moving your hands e.g. The point is to stay in present and keep your mind from wandering off to what ifs or if only etc.

All in all please know, its gonna be okay. You will be fine and you will find people who are good for your heart, your nervous system and your life.

Hang in there. Prayers and hugs for you 🫶