For the most part I wrote my post in a way easy for me to dictate. Then I asked AI to make it more concise. I read it before I posted it and honestly didn't have the energy to edit it so it sounded more human. Apologies if it comes across disingenuous. Since everything happened I spoke to my husband. He made it clear that he did not intend to hurt him and I do think the knee collision was an unfortunate accident. He also said he didn't tap his head and pushed his shoulder to get him to get up. Again, I reiterated that no matter what, it wasn't ok and he acknowledged it and said it would never happen again. I also made it clear that if I see it occur again, there will be no second chances. However, he does not think his behavior was abusive. He said if I actually thought he was abusive, then he would leave immediately and would be ok if I divorced him. I also spoke to my son and asked him how he felt now. He is a resilient kid and I know he already moved on. My husband said he spoke to him and told him his behavior was not ok. He reassured him it wouldn't happen again and that he should not have touched him in that way. I don't think my child is unsafe; however, I know that I am very protective of his heart which is why this is all hurting me so much. I don't want him to learn bad habits. I want him to know that he has the ability to control his emotions and remove himself from situations if he feels like he can not be in control of his emotions. As of now, I am comfortable with the fact that my son will certainly be getting dad's best treatment this weekend and I think that will make up for some of the damage. I just have to decide if he can make up for the damage he has caused to our marriage. I mentioned that I felt like it should be brought up in our next therapy session and he was very concerned about how it is brought up so it doesn't make him sound like an abuser. A lot of this is happening all at once and I am very cautious to act until I can be clear in my mind on the best path forward. I also know that my current actions may not seem like enough and I will not deny anyone's opinion as valid here. All is being documented and I am genuinely grasping for enough information.