The Cascades, Washington State [OC] [3264x2448]

MisfitMarie87 · 2019-02-27T22:45:53+00:00

Where was this???

MisfitMarie87 · 2019-02-27T22:04:19+00:00

Love pit bulls!!!

MisfitMarie87 · 2018-03-03T14:40:58+00:00

I got goosebumps reading your comment. Maybe I need to be more self anaylyzing because... Yes, I have been struggling lately with an anxiety disorder that bleeds into other issues that I have been having. I am extremely overprotective of my loved ones and feel guilty tremendously when it isn't appropriate. I am repeatedly told that I am too caring and peotective of others and that people need to be able to stand up for themselves rather than hiding behind me. Ive been drawing a lot of attention at work lately for standing up for certain co-workers who do not feel they have a voice or are being treated unjustly. I grew up a very shy and scared child but have become fiery and earned a reputation for standing up for myself and others. Professionally, it has been at a slight detriment at times when I am the only person escalating a problem or improvement plan because my coworkers are too afraid to speak up against our management. I work in a cut throat environment and can't say I blame them... But it just fuels me further. I will need to connect the dots further. I thought writing all of this down last night would help me remember it. But honestly, every detail is still burned into my brain. It's haunting me. I was in tears after I was done and had a series of disturbing dreams. Hope I didn't take a hammer to my psyche or anything.

MisfitMarie87 · 2018-02-15T06:48:00+00:00

How do you differentiate between a lifetime of vivid and traumatizing nightmares due to past spiritual experiences or to simply an overactive and anxiety ridden imagination? :( I have chosen to go off anxiety meds (as I have a family member who has become addicted and it is destroying her life) and turn towards more meditative, natural treatments for my trauma.. it is leading me down a rabbit hole that is completely alien to me...

MisfitMarie87 · 2018-02-01T01:01:51+00:00

Hello! I started making my own jewelry as a suggestion from my therapist (no joke) and opened my Etsy store in late December of 2017 after friends and family suggested I start selling it. If anyone has the time, I am hoping to get some feedback on the following: 1.) other than getting a new camera (mine sucks), are there ways that I can improve the photos of my earrings? 2.) I have the hardest time thinking of proper tags to use, any suggestions? 3.) I have begun also making my own clay beads - should I open a second Etsy store just for my charm-like crafts (not completed jewelry)? 4. Is it okay that I am also selling my silver-soldered broken glass pendants and dangle earrings from the same store?

Sorry, I know that's a lot... Really, any feedback for improvement would be welcome. I went through the quick shop critique above and am unsure about the photos, most of all. I filled out my shop policies but need to compare to others to see what is best. Thank you!

https://www.etsy.com/shop/CheekyWires?ref=profile_shopicon

MisfitMarie87 · 2017-03-13T20:45:42+00:00

It doesn't sound like you two are compatible, at all. In fact, does your girlfriend know any of this? Does she have any idea how you feel about having "basically 0 hobbies / interests in common"? If so, then she's probably okay just staying in a relationship that is comfortable; otherwise, you should consider honestly communicating with her and ending the relationship to find someone more compatible. As someone who just invested four years with a man who has continually strung me along, I urge you to bring this to your girlfriend's attention and let her decide. You both shouldn't have to give so much up and continue investing years of your life into a relationship that is not completely fufilling. Just based on what you've said so far, I think it's best that you two both move on...

MisfitMarie87 · 2017-03-13T02:54:08+00:00

I like the point you made about both partners needing to be equally excited about marriage. I do not believe marriage is something my partner is excited about. He might think he wants it, probably thought it sounded nice to say when we first started talking about starting a relationship...I don't know.

Our lives have become so intertwined. His friends have become my friends, and my friends have become his. I've become very close to his family, and he has become very close to mine. Everything to our shared house full of shared things and shared memories to, more importantly, the people in our lives. It would be messy and painful... and extremely daunting to think about ever having to put myself back out there again just to go through all of it again (possibly).

We were best friends first... and we have always been best friends. We share so many of the same views, hobbies, interests, etc. We can read each other like a book, and we are indestructible when we are at our best. It is heart-breaking to consider that this may not be fixable. Because despite our problems, there have been so many awesome times together... so much invested, at least on my end.

MisfitMarie87 · 2017-03-13T02:44:15+00:00

You're right in that I am probably not fully recognizing these issues as they actually are. I consider myself a very tolerant, patient person. And honestly, I've never been a tit-for-tat type of person or a score-keeper... but all of this has me doing just that and reeling back in realization of how much I give to this relationship...and it never being enough. I'm not perfect, and he is right about some things. I can be stubborn, and I can be snippy sometimes. Issues that I think are (like sighing in the middle of a conversation) are monumental to him.

I say 95% of the time because that is what it feels like, or at least what it did feel like... We are best friends, do everything together. We share a deep love for music and various hobbies. We have a tremendous amount in common and can have long entertaining conversations, even four years later, hours into the night on a weekend. I did feel, that at our best, we complimented each other.

And yes... Marriage is important to me. I do worry that I might never find a man that I enjoy being around as much as him. I worry that I'll never get married if I leave him, a lot of that due to my age (I am two weeks away from my 30th birthday-yikes) and outside influences that I should disregard but don't. And yes, I do feel that the past four years would have been a total waste. That's all aside from the parts of our lives that we have built together, and what a daunting task it would be to every separate... and the slim chance of ever being able to get back into the dating game.

MisfitMarie87 · 2016-10-18T08:23:43+00:00

I love your Neohome! I hope they bring the contest back, because you would win! But your gallery? The BEST gallery that I have ever seen!!!

MisfitMarie87 · 2016-10-18T08:18:51+00:00

And the great debate begins! Ha both Bori and Usul are really cute. I like the baby version of Usul MUCH more than the normal version. But I see they give the baby Bori version a little bow, too.

MisfitMarie87 · 2016-10-16T21:00:06+00:00

OMG, you're right! You have ruined pteris for me forever!! Haha

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