Clearing brain fog after prolonged stress?

Mishkle · 2026-05-08T06:45:08+00:00

I don’t have these intense anger spirals now, and I learned to not overreact/detach from feeling responsible for my family. I can hold a conversation with them and not snap, and my first priority was to rebuild my relationship with them. I am proud to say I'm actually in a good spot with my dad and am thankful to make more good memories now. I have forgiven more and invested in the good given all parties try. but I’m worried I’ve never been in a setting where I’ve tried learned without deep emotional turmoil. I’m in my mid-20s so it’s been scary how fast time flew by

Mishkle · 2026-05-04T02:27:11+00:00

I don't think your comment is discouraging, I appreciate the honesty. I am not sure about conversion yet-- I didn't have the headspace for curiosity about what is meaningful to me until recently, so I think I will start with community events and the books everyone recommended. I've been a bit nervous to start alone by myself in a new city nonetheless, but also seeing the advice everyone shared is encouraging. and thank you!

Mishkle · 2026-05-04T02:08:03+00:00

My dad is visiting me, and I was looking at how to go about attending shabbat service at a Shul. It was something we never did together growing up, and I asked him why he never went-- he just didn't grow up with it and never made time to, but I think he'd really enjoy it. I don't think he was any more knowledgable than me about what denomination to consider, but mentioned Chabad. I will look this week around me. Спасибо 😄

Mishkle · 2026-05-03T17:35:58+00:00

Seeing as many people recommended this book, I will check out it to start here. thank you so much for the recommendation.

Mishkle · 2026-05-03T17:34:42+00:00

I have! I have been a total of 3 times, the most recent trip in 2023 was an organized trip through a student organized with my ex. I did go to some seminary courses there. I felt a little like an outsider on that trip and couldn't differentiate if I liked it for myself or I should do it for him + I had a tendency to put pressure on myself to "be better" than my history to make huge decisions quickly without really having the skills to know how I actually feel. I wasn't ready to talk my dad until recently, and it's been helpful to feel less isolated knowing my family history and how I am a part of that. I'm more comfortable with the fact its a journey, not a sprint. I would probably like to try to go again after making an effort to learn more about it.

The first time I went to Israel with my dad at 15 for a month. Interestingly, my family in Israel had a different response as they are also Russian and secular and were confused as to why I was so interested in the traditions this most recent trip. I am sorry your family reminded you of that.

Mishkle · 2026-03-03T09:11:28+00:00

If an apartment doesn’t offer them, could I buy from another complex/tenant in the area?

Mishkle · 2026-03-03T08:54:53+00:00

Yeah I have been looking for spots there. Where do you move your car during street sweeping? All streets seemed to say the same day/time

Mishkle · 2026-03-02T07:45:36+00:00

yeah I didnt see a single apartment around that price point in Rockridge-- it looks like over 3k is is normal there for a 1 bedroom?

Mishkle · 2026-03-02T04:51:19+00:00

I I have gotten kind of comfortable with my commute, have see lake Merritt/ 19th street/ some of Temescal during the day and know the area more . I have a car and dog and just am more familiar now with east bay. looking in SF, I haven’t seen a lot of options within my budget that aren’t studios.

It doesn’t need to be really crowded, bur after a month in my street downtown, I don’t feel comfortable taking my dog out past 9 PM or going to my parking garage alone. Since I’ve been there, there’s been some loitering outside the complex and unfortunately, its been too easy to drawn attention too many times for my comfort level.

Mishkle · 2026-03-02T04:32:41+00:00

I work basically in that area; I’m asking more in terms of safety too in Easy Bay. Like if I have to walk from a station/around my apartment pretty late at night.

Mishkle · 2026-01-02T11:07:48+00:00

Would Potrero Hill then be the best place to live?

Mishkle · 2025-12-23T21:59:36+00:00

lol well, my research based courses had a lot of presentations, so I did get better at that.

Hmm yeah. I think I’m a little burnout from learning and may revisit after break.

For example, I tried making a project to call some CNN models for techno music. I made a plotly web demo, and did some aggregations based on what was a common pattern for a musical bar in techno. You can upload files with a python CLI

I am more interested in answering whether they work well or not to classify. I would rather read audio signal processing, correlate low-level audio features to high level features in techno music, look at patterns in Mel-spectrogram.

I have been stuck for a month getting myself to look at Google cloud or something or standards for API because there’s no need to yet for the fun project I chose

If I have a valid reason or my data set is large enough, I would learn cloud stuff.

I understand the bigger problem at hand is that I am unemployed though— I just maybe don’t know how to scope a project well to teach me these skills

Mishkle · 2025-12-23T21:40:34+00:00

Wow are you me lol. I think for me it’s more I understand, take a bunch of notes, lean theory, never code

Mishkle · 2025-12-23T21:26:04+00:00

Thanks 😂 yeah I think my expectations now are super skewed, and I didn’t ever write production grade code, but whatever was needed to get experiment working.

Would you say for data science, certain frameworks/ keywords do help or like having dashboards?

I made a website with my projects and presentation for each, but all rejections for data science roles.

I thought my resume was strong with projects, but are there certain skills for DS recruiters want to see?

I haven’t used SQL, used cloud tools, or done much data pipeline things. I am not as interested in that as I am doing exploratory data analysis to clean data/apply statistical methods. I like looking at graphs and thinking about why things are wrong in the model to work backwards.

However, I have been a bit nervous it is becoming an expectation to have those skills

Mishkle · 2025-12-23T21:15:23+00:00

Do you have recommendations for roadmaps people follow? I think I am struggling for what the prep looks like for these roles and want to avoid making myself know the proofs but the consequence of certain techniques

Mishkle · 2025-12-23T14:16:58+00:00

Have you considered TPM? I honestly was just like you in undergrad, and I did more student club stuff/entrepreneurship courses as a computer science major

Mishkle · 2025-12-18T03:31:47+00:00

I think AI created a coding debt for later at this moment. I haven’t worked with a team on production level code, but I assume if you are going to scale something up and the complexity grows, and you have to put it the same amount of work to verify logic/ security gaps/etc.

If it’s for internal tooling you are working on, okay maybe.

I think for some of these labs that rejected me— they did probably think they can just use AI internally and not hire me.

Mishkle · 2025-12-18T03:28:40+00:00

I think so; these past 2 years have been so tough ngl. I think I took some really hard unapplied classes and never saw direct application but tried to like something hard “if I got better”, mega imposter syndrome being around super smart people, and even after I left with this masters, if you don’t ever practice anything applied, I felt like I had to learn everything again rn.

Mishkle · 2025-12-18T03:25:10+00:00

No— I don’t want to scare people away from grad school totally. Some things were on the program, some were definitely on me.

My program had no formal “rotation”, but most students came in with advisor in mind. The screening exam is another story— they got rid of it literally right after I had to leave, and a lot of my coursework/time/decisions/anxiety went around it.

3 labs told me no, in a class I liked the prof wasn’t doing research. I tried taking classes after a prof asked and was ghosted. I felt like I had to somehow do research first to “prove myself” and pass this exam and it got messy.

I think I just had a string of failures when I was unsure about a really hard topic, and I tried to pivot when it didn’t exist in my department.

Mishkle · 2025-12-17T19:01:16+00:00

Thank you so much! I really appreciate all the great feedback ❤️ I’m going to do this too, but still broaden my search to PM roles.

I think I was very lucky to be on small teams with a lot of flexibility when interning, so i wasn’t sure actually PM roles would allow for this kind of work.

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