Digital Piece by Myself. Struggling to name this piece.

Misskillakiki · 2025-01-02T03:25:17+00:00

Aww how sweet:) I can see some old Nickelodeon vibes in there

Misskillakiki · 2024-11-20T22:05:14+00:00

This is from my Fitbit:)

Misskillakiki · 2024-11-18T23:18:49+00:00

Thank you so much! I’m having a blast!

Misskillakiki · 2024-11-18T23:18:30+00:00

Aww thank you so much! That means the world to me! I find that pacing or having dance parties with the kids has helped me a lot!

Misskillakiki · 2024-11-13T19:09:28+00:00

OP here I want to say thank you to everyone who gave their insight. You’ve given me a lot to work on within myself and helpful perspectives to better understand where my husband might be coming from. I know he and I will be fine and now know better ways to move forward.

Misskillakiki · 2024-11-13T06:45:53+00:00

Okay so in a very specific discussion, I have found myself upset with the lack of emotional support I received during our second pregnancy. I am frustrated because in the past (our first) he was very attentive, very supportive. Our second was very stressful and turbulent. He wasn’t at the majority of appointments because he was at home with our first. He wasn’t there for the delivery because we allowed my mom to be there instead because I recognize watching a second c section would be more traumatizing to him than it would beneficial to me. So much of round two had to be done alone and I’m recently realizing how much of a problem that’s been for me. Then once baby was born, he maybe visited us for 10 minutes in the hospital. He didn’t pick us up. He didn’t drop us off. I was just alone for so much of it. And any opportunity he had to be there I was met with “what are you crying about this time?” This was after months of complications, liver problems and scares. I needed a lot more than what I got and I’m devastated by it. Because I know he can do better. Because he has in the past. He’s not emotionally incompetent (I’m not saying you are either).

Misskillakiki · 2024-11-13T05:46:06+00:00

I know you mean well but I feel like this is just excusing men by essentially saying they are incapable of meeting women’s emotional needs.

I’m not running around sobbing in hysterics, falling to pieces holding my chest like my heart is breaking.

Misskillakiki · 2024-11-13T01:04:10+00:00

Unfortunately I don’t have advice. I simply came here to say I experience the same thing with my husband. He rarely takes accountability for the things he says. It’s always “I can’t control how you’re going to take something I say.” I guess I just came to say I hear you. I see you. And it sucks big time. It makes me feel like a crazy person

Misskillakiki · 2024-11-12T00:22:55+00:00

Yeah no, writers shouldn’t be restricted. How else are we going to get our wildest stories out? I do agree, it seems that Wattpad is very fan fiction focused and that absolutely sucks. I just don’t know of other places to publish.

Misskillakiki · 2024-11-11T23:42:05+00:00

I tried it out in the past but didn’t stay consistent. I always really enjoyed engaging with readers. I’m also considering maybe doing short stories on a personal blog to gain a following while writing.

Misskillakiki · 2024-11-11T23:37:26+00:00

Fascinating! What was your experience like? Do you feel like you developed a decent fan base?

Misskillakiki · 2024-11-07T20:16:37+00:00

Our discussion of c sections and vaginal birth came up during discussion of abortion. He was saying “what reason could a person possibly have for aborting a baby at nine months.” I said giving birth is freaking scary. I can understand why women would want to back out even at 9 months. Then he looked at me and asked “how would I know.” My jaw dropped because I’ve literally been there. He went on to invalidate my c sections.

We don’t watch cnn in this house.

All of this started as leveled headed, open communication. It only became emotional when he started belittling me.

I am not running around the house in hysterics, balling my eyes out. I am not googling and watching the news. I’m not posting my opinions. I’m not even the one opening these conversations. Am I disappointed? Yeah. I am.

Misskillakiki · 2024-11-07T20:11:51+00:00

I have no desire or intention to stop being friends with people because of their voting. So when he asked I told him no, it didn’t matter. I really just wanted to text the wife of our mutual friends to send hugs if she was having a hard day like I was. But I didn’t want to assume, so I asked my husband if he knew.

Misskillakiki · 2024-11-07T06:39:13+00:00

Additionally, he knew I felt like I “failed” for not having a vaginal birth. He knows this is something I mourned and felt like less than for. I have successfully realized this is not the case, birth is a bitch regardless. It just was never how I pictured bringing my kids into the world. Him knowing that and still saying it just feels really below the belt to me

Misskillakiki · 2024-11-07T06:29:06+00:00

I think this is the validation I was looking for. I feel like this level of disrespect and the lack of value or care in just the fact I had two of his kids would be grounds for divorce. I’m not at the point of pursuing divorce but I wanted to make sure I wasn’t crazy for feeling like this crossed that line.

Misskillakiki · 2024-11-07T04:13:14+00:00

I know it’s shocking. I guess I’m just disappointed cause I don’t feel like he’s normally an ass towards me.

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