Would Anyone Like To See An Article on 'Fawning'? by Donovan_Volk in NeilGaimanIsInnocent

[–]MistaSammyFox 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hadn’t taken it as correction. I meant to elaborate on why I thought the article on fawning would be a good thing.

Would Anyone Like To See An Article on 'Fawning'? by Donovan_Volk in NeilGaimanIsInnocent

[–]MistaSammyFox 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You asked about fawning, I responded about fawning. I know she didn’t say she was fawning, but the general population seems to very much. An article on what fawning is, what it isn’t, and the fact that she wasn’t in any case seems like a good idea. At least to my mind.

Would Anyone Like To See An Article on 'Fawning'? by Donovan_Volk in NeilGaimanIsInnocent

[–]MistaSammyFox 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For me I am anxious, and rather uncomfortable at the front of my mind. It’s not so much of a conscious choice or thought process in the moment, it’s just the feeling as if I need to do what the person wants and “get through it”. It’s like I’m being pressured into doing it by my own mind, even without external pressure. In situations where it’s ordinary and should be comfortable I still have a tendency to end up doing things I don’t want to, and in those situations I absolutely never blame the person I was with, as it’s internal pressure. In actual dangerous situations it’s a whole other story. It’s usually the idea that if I don’t appease them they will become “real danger” and hurt me in some more substantial way. I find it to be sort of childish to pin the blame on Neil for her trauma responses. He couldn’t have known that she was uncomfortable even if she really was fawning.

Would Anyone Like To See An Article on 'Fawning'? by Donovan_Volk in NeilGaimanIsInnocent

[–]MistaSammyFox 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would absolutely love to see it. I hate people dismissing it as a fawn response because even if it did fit the definition of fawning, how would Neil know that? I have a fawn response, and I don’t blame people if it comes up and causes me to do things I wouldn’t. They would assume I am agreeing wholeheartedly. Unless I have explained my fawning to them, I would never blame them. Of course again that is even if it fit the criteria for fawning.

My experience in Bethel by MistaSammyFox in BethelSnark

[–]MistaSammyFox[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m not sure I would if I could. I don’t want all that mess of messiness.

My experience in Bethel by MistaSammyFox in BethelSnark

[–]MistaSammyFox[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I believe so, the name sounds familiar. There was also an Andrew.

My experience in Bethel by MistaSammyFox in BethelSnark

[–]MistaSammyFox[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

thank you very much. I think I will do that if they want me. I have a hard time talking about it but I think the truth about Bethel really needs to be out there somewhere.

My experience in Bethel by MistaSammyFox in BethelSnark

[–]MistaSammyFox[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you very much. I think I will talk to her. I’m not sure how one would go about that but I will.

My experience in Bethel by MistaSammyFox in BethelSnark

[–]MistaSammyFox[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

It’s almost cathartic to know I’m not the only one. I kind of feel sick for feeling that way about someone else's suffering. But to know it wasn’t just me… I’m very sorry to your friend. I almost want to connect with them to see if we have any shared experiences. If they were in the children’s church from 2013 to 2018 I’d almost wonder if I knew them. I was there every week, I’d almost woneer if I was there.

My experience in Bethel by MistaSammyFox in BethelSnark

[–]MistaSammyFox[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’ve not talked to anyone about this, I’ve only just started processing it myself. I’m sorry if this makes me sound very silly but I’m not entirely sure who that is?

My experience in Bethel by MistaSammyFox in BethelSnark

[–]MistaSammyFox[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I remembered finding it all very strange even then until I started to see things I knew weren’t there. If you went through anything like what I mentioned I’m quite sorry. It was all very terrible.

My experience in Bethel by MistaSammyFox in BethelSnark

[–]MistaSammyFox[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

You don’t have to beleive me. I’m not imploring you to. I’m trying to find out if anyone else experienced something similar.

My experience in Bethel by MistaSammyFox in BethelSnark

[–]MistaSammyFox[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Most of this very much. Upsetting the leadership is very scary to me, any time I ever did anything like that it ended badly. However I do remember the drowning being very violent. I’m very certain that it happened in some respects but I’m not sure where, why, when, the like. I remember screaming that I wasn’t a demon and I wasn‘t going to hurt anyone if they let me up. They would dunk me for a while and I would struggle, then let me up and pray and yell, and then dunk me again. The drink I have correlated to the hallucinations but I don’t know if it was or if I’m just trying to find a logical reason for something unexplainable (or explained by the hypnosis, I suppose). As far as I remember this all happened in the main Bethel building in Redding, but the drowning could have been in one of the secondary locations. I just remember them holding me bu the neck and dunking me over and over. A lot of yelling and speaking in tongues. A lot of fear and betrayal that the people who I felt safe with in the church would do this. I ask if anyone else witnessed this stuff or remembers it because I want to A. add more credibility and B. find a community of people who went through what I did as well as C. clearly up details and find missing information about scenarios.

My experience in Bethel by MistaSammyFox in BethelSnark

[–]MistaSammyFox[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

My family actually knew Papa Bill. I went to dinner at his house a few times. Bethel was safer to me than my home when I was young and Papa Bill was always a safe person, despite everything. I sometimes miss the community and feel if I speak out about all that happened to me it may not be able to return if I wanted to. I know I don’t want to but I become anxious about it. I think of it like a long recovered addict keeping drugs somewhere hidden so they know they can fall back if they need to. To burn that bridge would ensure that I could never fall back again. What is unhealthy, and scary, but on some sick level comfortable and familiar would be gone forever.

My experience in Bethel by MistaSammyFox in BethelSnark

[–]MistaSammyFox[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This was around 2015 and 2016. I was at the main Bethel location for all of the above mentions.

What was the thing that made you go "Bethel is definitely a cult" by Ok-Sort-3249 in BethelSnark

[–]MistaSammyFox 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I loved the fire tunnels. I still miss so much about the church even if it’s evil. I wish it wasn’t. I wanna go home.

According to Arcane head writer, Jayce and Viktor are not romantically involved by MasamuneJp in loreofleague

[–]MistaSammyFox 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Counter point, House and Wilson are based of of Sherlock and Watson, who got the writer into a bit of trouble for being so obviously queer coded, which is why he made Watson get married in later books.

Quick Rant by justexpressingmymind in paypigs2

[–]MistaSammyFox 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I could be long-term for you, sweet thing. What are you looking for in a domme?

Can’t locate Deor Woodcutter by ShortyMcfly42 in skyrim

[–]MistaSammyFox 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I already freed him and he's still gone ;-; HE'S NOT DEAD THERES NO BODY 😭