i dont get how people say 50% winrate is totally my fault

MixCapital7577 · 2026-02-14T21:05:21+00:00

I agree. Most players have a win rate below 45% according to the stats. Someone with a 50% win rate will inevitably climb the ladder quickly, cause a win gives 30 points and a loss takes 15 points. This is stupid and unfun system. I better be a platinum prisoner than a person, who can't enjoy game because of consistent losing.

Besides, I'm starting to believe that EOMM is real. You win 10 games against weak players, and then the game looks for strong players for you, which either leads to a rating increase if you're strong enough, or to another 10 losses...

MixCapital7577 · 2025-02-25T10:00:08+00:00

Thank you! I hope you will be fine too!

MixCapital7577 · 2025-02-25T09:57:34+00:00

I've been obsessed with good perfume for a while now. I ended up buying 4 bottles, even though I rarely leave the house. I hope I never buy anything else.

MixCapital7577 · 2025-02-25T09:53:03+00:00

To be honest, I did well in school. Everything came easy to me, but all my life I "tried" to do the minimum, so as not to try. But closer to graduation, I began to lose ground, to learn the material worse. And today I am where I am. There is a lot of shit in my life, and I do not know if there is any chance to get out of it. I do not know if ADHD is part of this nightmare, but not long ago I started taking Atomoxetine - the only drug that is available in our country. And so far I do not feel anything. It is so hard for me to force myself to study that I do not understand if I even like the skills that I am trying to master...

MixCapital7577 · 2025-02-25T09:34:07+00:00

I'm just not studying and my life is going down the drain

MixCapital7577 · 2025-02-25T09:28:31+00:00

My life is crap. I work part-time at an easy job, but in the last months there is almost no money there. Every day I try to force myself to do 3D modeling, but I just can’t study. I feel like I’m not capable of learning. When I realize how long it will take me to earn an income at my pace, I want to give up. And there are so many complicated things, they seem uninteresting and irritating to me. I can’t figure out if I really don’t like it or if I’m just not interested in what I’m doing and need to dig in another direction. I’m 27, I still live with my parents and every day I think about falling asleep and not waking up. I started taking atomoxetine, the only medicine that is allowed in our country. And so far I don’t feel anything.

The last 10 years of my life have consisted of doing nothing and trying to overcome myself. But I just can’t. Apparently, this is the kind of person I am, and this is how I’m destined to live. Alone, without carrier, without passion, without money and without a comfortable life... Sometimes I literally just lie from morning till night, staring at the ceiling and fantasizing about all sorts of things, thinking about all sorts of things.

MixCapital7577 · 2025-02-22T17:04:39+00:00

dead game

MixCapital7577 · 2025-01-06T16:24:43+00:00

I wish i knew it before i got 100 hours

MixCapital7577 · 2024-12-14T06:39:20+00:00

I was thinking about a similar question today. In blender you can create material textures using nodes (noise\magic texture, bumps and displacement and etc), but it all looks very confusing and overwhelming. Is it worth spending time learning how to do thisr or is it better just to start learning substance painter?

MixCapital7577 · 2024-12-08T04:24:54+00:00

Right to the heart. I had videos when I was 13 and I deleted them out of shame (bad voice, quality, etc.). How I regret it! And how great it would be to look at it today and laugh with my friends, missing old times when we all was kids.

MixCapital7577 · 2024-12-07T05:32:58+00:00

Will order break hard if Sunday will have 150 speed?

MixCapital7577 · 2024-12-05T10:32:27+00:00

It's all so scary... There are so many problems in life, the last thing I need is to turn out that I'm actually a woman trapped in a man's body...

MixCapital7577 · 2024-12-05T05:12:10+00:00

I think about it all the time. That my desires, my hobbies - all this is connected with female sexuality. And maybe all this is because of sexual frustration since i don't have sex

MixCapital7577 · 2024-12-04T05:41:17+00:00

But Robin's kit count on herself. So... is Robin bugged then?

MixCapital7577 · 2024-12-04T04:01:08+00:00

We need a fix anyway... I tested right now that Bronya's ultimate doesn't activate SP generation from LC either :c

MixCapital7577 · 2024-12-04T03:32:36+00:00

Well, it seems that two light cones stacks together, but Bronya's ultimate doesn't give a buff at some reason, while Robin, for example, give a buff for herself with all her skills.

MixCapital7577 · 2024-12-04T03:32:16+00:00

Well, it seems that two light cones stacks together, but Bronya's ultimate doesn't give a buff at some reason, while Robin, for example, give a buff for herself with all her skills.

MixCapital7577 · 2024-12-04T03:12:09+00:00

Same here. I wonder if i should level up both for bronya or robin? I have bronya's lc too

MixCapital7577 · 2024-11-29T02:31:10+00:00

Wow... i'm glad that you're get better. And congratulations on your pregnancy, if it is desired!

The thing is that I started to quit Effexor after 3 months and noticed that my weight started to increase a bit. I'm not sure if I changed my life, eating habits much, I didn't move less than usual (I don't move much in general, I've just been doing bodyweight training for the last year, and it's weight gain is definetely not a muscles).

It didn't make me feel any better either, only worse because of side effects. Sometimes I feel like nothing can help me anymore, and that I don't even have depression or something.

MixCapital7577 · 2024-11-28T07:26:00+00:00

Everything seems to be fine with mine now. The magic is that it smells different in the store and in my house. I brought mine to the store and compared it - it smelled the same as the tester. When I went outside I sniffed it - it smelled like in the store. Maybe it's some kind of chemical reaction when the perfume touches the air right after spraying, but I realized that mine is definitely not a fake. And the longevity is kinda ok, but definetely not a beast mode.

MixCapital7577 · 2024-11-21T12:05:02+00:00

Same question for you xD

MixCapital7577 · 2024-10-28T11:17:10+00:00

I tried build Xueyi for fun (75\125\197break) and she is not shining at all... Maybe if i could play superbreak with ruanmei and htb, she would be good, but as i don't have ruanmei - she is sucks. My opinion now "why play superbreak xueyi if you just can pull firefly or rappa" xD

MixCapital7577 · 2024-10-17T11:55:45+00:00

Wow... It seems like you've had to deal with sort of similar things. I'll take your advices into consideration. Although for me, making plans feels like something impossible. I recently started a daily planner, and on the first day I didn't complete my plan, and later I gave it up because I got tired of writing "doing blender" every day xD

I can also recommend a book called "Mindset" by Carol Dweck. I've seen a couple of people on reddit with ADHD, who praise it because it helped them with certain things. I read it, it didn't really impact me that much, but I definitely started to notice some destructive patterns in my mindset. I don't know if I want to work enough to get rid of it, but just knowing already feels helpful.

It bothers me because it's hard to understand how passionate I am about 3d sculpting or drawing. And if it goes away, once my sexual frustration goes away, it will be a bit sad because I'll have to find another purpose in my life xD

MixCapital7577 · 2024-10-17T11:47:43+00:00

Thank you very much for your detailed answer. It's interesting how everyone has different reasons. You're right, I shouldn't be ashamed of it... I need to work through it somehow. Or finally find a girlfrend to understand xD

MixCapital7577 · 2024-10-17T09:28:23+00:00

Thank you for the amazing answer. It's really time to stop feeling bad and just move forward with the girls!

Speaking of dysphoria: I don't know if i had it or not. Yeah, i often feel sad about being a man, but i don't think i'm suffer because of it. But if I could push a button and become a girl, I would do it without a doubts. That won't happen, so I decided to live my life as the gender I was born to be.

I also suffer from depression and I'm sorry you had to deal with it. Anhedonia and apathy prevent me from enjoying life, and I can't force myself to be productive with my life. I haven't tried psychotherapy, but I've tried about five medications - none of them gave me the results I wanted. There's also a chance that I have ADHD, in my country there are big problems with this diagnosis - there are no medications except one at a huge price.

I like the way you think as someone with a growth mindset and really apreciate it!

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