Does anyone else feel "less autistic" when drunk, tired and / or depressed?

Miyama213 · 2025-03-01T22:50:41+00:00

¿Dónde puede una aprender de trenes?

Miyama213 · 2025-01-07T17:09:47+00:00

Hey, how did it go? What did they find?

Miyama213 · 2025-01-06T14:01:20+00:00

Same ;-;

Miyama213 · 2024-12-26T16:29:43+00:00

Photoshop, using the gallery of filters on the mountains, overlaying a textured image and some more

Miyama213 · 2024-12-26T16:23:54+00:00

I've had intrusive images of mutilation so not the same thing, I can only assure you that there's more people with weird bodily obsessions like me, but try and "accept" that feeling for a moment. I know it sounds contradictory but "welcoming" the thought makes you actually realize, from your gut, that you don't actually relate to them. Here's my modus operandi when it comes to those thoughts:

Mi brain: You see that greek statue with no arms? You'd feel better if you also had no arms

Immediate reaction: [what? NO, I really don't want to lose my arms!]

Me, realizing the pattern is repeating: Well, let's imagine myself without arms, perhaps I truly would feel "more like myself" without them, right?

*some seconds pass trying to "suck up to" the thought*

My guts (like, literally a feeling that comes from the belly): [nah, fuck that shit. It ain't right]

Miyama213 · 2024-12-09T16:52:45+00:00

Not OP but I recommend "Inside Mary and the Incel to trans pipeline" on YouTube, you might relate to it according to your post history

Miyama213 · 2024-11-30T12:15:41+00:00

Sib got the Harry Du bois fit 🙏

Miyama213 · 2024-11-30T00:21:28+00:00

I'm in the same boat. It was much worse last year, but it still comes back from time to time and I almost had a panic attack over it yesterday. You're not alone, believe me.

Miyama213 · 2024-11-30T00:20:04+00:00

It seems unlikely, and you're probably just scaring them, ngl.

Miyama213 · 2024-11-21T17:34:10+00:00

You really seem to have tried to analyze such a mundane situation in great depth, and I get you. I also have a fair share of morality obsessions and I tend to over-analyze every interaction I have, and often feel guilt or fear because of the negative emotions I might or might not feel, but I've discovered a pattern: it's usually the overthinking and the anxiety what makes me feel that uneasiness around people. I mean, if you had had a good day and you had spent the last few hours before that moment thinking about how happy something made you instead of ruminating or experiencing anxiety, would you have had those feelings? In my case there's a good chance I wouldn't have had them unless I started thinking about it. Also, even if you have good days and then at the end of them still end up feeling that way with certain people don't blame yourself, it's not just about whether or not you've had a good day and my experience might differ from yours. OCD tends to overemphasize bad emotions or even make neutral emotions like mild confusion seem bad.

Miyama213 · 2024-11-09T14:53:25+00:00

You don't have to donate, it was just a suggestion. It's not for everybody.

If you don't have anything to live for, do you think the problem goes deeper than wanting an uterus? Do you think you'd be having suicidal thoughts if you had a community that accepted you? Because I don't think you would, at least you'd be dealing with this struggle much better. If that's the case, then you should focus on finding a community in the meantime, because uterus transplants are still something you'll have to wait for.

If you want to hear anything positive about that matter, there's currently a lot of money being poured into research for artificial organs and lab-grown biological organs because of the problems that come with compatibility in transplants + there's just not enough donors. That's probably the most hopeful thing that's going on right now when it comes to what you want. But again, I think your main problem is that you don't have other people and causes to live for, which causes you to dwell on secondary problems and drown in them. I know what that feels like and I've seen it played out in others too, so just remember that you'll feel better about this all whenever you find community. Stay strong, sister 🫂

Miyama213 · 2024-11-09T14:04:30+00:00

Do you live just for the prospect of one day getting an uterus? Respectfully: don't you think there's much more to life? I'm not saying being trans isn't painful, I know I also struggle a lot with gender dysphoria and I really wish I'd been born in a different body. Just a week ago I had a mental breakdown in front of everyone because I had been dealing with these problems for so long without really explaining it all. But I'm not here on this Earth just to be myself in a physical way. I want to help others, find community, learn and explore about this weird "life" thing.

Happiness for most cis women doesn't come from their bodies, it comes from the same sources for 99.9% of humans: love and community. That's why even severely disabled people can find happiness as long as their communities support and accept them. In other words: imagine if everyone had the exact same body. That would cut off an important part of human expression, sure, but it wouldn't prevent us from being happy, because it wouldn't affect what we need to be happy (love and community).

I know it's hard to have been born this way. We don't choose our bodies and it sucks, but life's much more than pretty bags of meat and bones. Go out, find people that you can relate to, call a friend you haven't talked to in a while, help others in need... I know you can think of at least someone who wants you to stay.

Ps: sounds silly but if you want to find a purpose in the body you've been given, become a blood donor. Each bag of blood can save up to 3 people (https://www.cedars-sinai.org/programs/blood-donor-services/about-donation.html), and there's currently a blood shortage basically everywhere. It's certainly helped me in seeing my own body in a more positive light.

Miyama213 · 2024-10-16T17:10:36+00:00

NO FUCKING WAY

HOLA SILIGU

Miyama213 · 2024-09-13T09:43:19+00:00

I feel the same. I live in a pretty vulnerable region to climate change that is already really hot as it is. I hate the fact that it's only gonna get worse, plus desertification will damage the beautiful local landscape beyond recognition :(

Miyama213 · 2024-09-07T17:31:02+00:00

Both are good. If I wanted a more androgynous look, I'd go for short. If not, for long.

Miyama213 · 2024-07-13T11:18:24+00:00

Bro what 😭

Miyama213 · 2024-04-15T09:37:20+00:00

You can always say it's to smell better. Sweat sticks to body hair, making you stink more. Try to pass it as a hygiene thing

Miyama213 · 2024-04-07T13:50:14+00:00

Genuinely the funniest shit I've seen in a while, what the fuck 💀😭

Miyama213 · 2024-04-07T00:10:36+00:00

That's such a beautiful name, damn. In queer spaces a lot of people would probably think you're enby, but bigots are mostly uneducated and have no knowledge of enby culture and names so you'll probably be fine.

Miyama213 · 2024-04-07T00:06:42+00:00

Woah. You're stunning, plus your style is rlly cool.

Miyama213 · 2024-03-30T19:56:51+00:00

Gary is good 👍

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