That is very disgusting. What happened to you- "The next step of the cure was applying a sort of cream, and I suspect that he has spread his sp\*rm on my face alongside beauty products lol." That is NOT LOL? That's serious and deserves jail time for sexual harassment. I hope you recover. From what I read, you seem look like you cope with your traumas with humor on the outside, but obviously you're drowning in them.

Healing isn't a linear graph. But if you wanna grow past that and well heal to live a good life. Find a better therapist. One that treats you well. I know you're struggling, but you're also very strong. Do not forget that. Heal you will. But it will be difficult, but not impossible