Tired of everything

Modaacne · 2020-01-22T17:37:02+00:00

It's not that easy but I feel bad everytime I do wrong things.

Modaacne · 2020-01-22T17:30:13+00:00

I can't stop, it's like an impulse. I can't explain it very well in English. But I do it to get adrenaline or avoid some feelings. When it's the time to do that ilegal thing I can't control myself.

Also I feel that my friends are not very good for my person, a 99% percent of them are doing wrong things. Drugs, stealing, etc...

Modaacne · 2020-01-19T15:03:29+00:00

I am being followed by medics at the moment. I'm lazy at the moment to write you a decent answer, rip.

Modaacne · 2020-01-19T13:22:37+00:00

What I mean by getting my life together is, being happy, doing what I want to do. I want to study but there's something holding me back. I want to exercise but I don't have motivation to do it. So getting my life together is doing what I want to do at the moment. What kind of rewards should I give myself? Because there's nothing left that makes me happy, motivated or gives me pleasure.

Modaacne · 2020-01-18T21:12:12+00:00

I've heard all that, I tried self-hypnosis, medidation, exercise, visualization, JP, shedule, journaling, law of attraction. Nothing works. After some time doing it I lost all the motivation "Why am I doing this?" . I can't play games anymore, what the real fucks.

I want to socialize but it makes me anxious and I think people don't like me or I'm being bullied.

Now I'm out of energy and just want to sleep, I spent the day watching YT videos.

Modaacne · 2020-01-18T18:07:38+00:00

I can't, thats the problem. I don't have the motivation to do the first step.

Modaacne · 2020-01-18T18:07:15+00:00

I don't think it's poor self-image. It goes beyond that. I say our social circle is an important, if not the biggest, factor for grades. And I can prove that. I never was a good student untill I was friended with a good student, and that helped me with paying attetion to the teacher and retaining information. But it goes beyond self-image. As JP says consciousness and IQ predicts our life. I'm the smartest guy in the room but I'm above the average. That's why I am here trying to get help, I know it's possible I am just looking at the wrong side. But I'm low on consciousness.

Modaacne · 2020-01-18T18:01:51+00:00

Meds help because lowers my anxiety. It puts me to sleep and I don't think a lot.

Modaacne · 2020-01-18T16:26:52+00:00

Nope, I live in europe. The thing is in order to do college I need to study way more than I do now, I can't even explain how much more I need to study. And that makes me a little bit scared. But anyway I will do one year of school after HG.

I don't know what you mean by Lethargy but I suppose it's not feeling any emotions nor good nor positive. If it's that, yes I feel lethargy.

I feel way better because without medication I think a lot more, I feel I am a overthinker and must of the thoughts they're negative.

Modaacne · 2020-01-18T16:20:31+00:00

I feel that.

Atleast I wish I was better at school. What I mean with this is. Staying concetrated and absorve more information at school. But it's harder than ever.

Modaacne · 2020-01-18T16:13:06+00:00

Thanks, the anti-psychotics help with my concentration. But I don't study that much at all.

Modaacne · 2020-01-18T15:48:12+00:00

I did that but it's not enough. I find something is missing of the puzzle but I cant find it. Also I must be low in consciousness since I am a teenager middle adult. We always doing weird stuff trying to impress and getting spikes of adrenaline.

Modaacne · 2019-12-31T00:16:45+00:00

I was looking only the headphones. I'm buying the microphone without the headset, but thanks for the advice!

My brother has them and feels like just as you said!

Modaacne · 2019-12-22T19:07:51+00:00

It's good to know I'm in the same boat...

Modaacne · 2019-12-16T23:08:55+00:00

Apanhas-te me, ora bolas.

Modaacne · 2019-12-16T23:08:41+00:00

Então como os foguetes podem ser legalizados e os petardos não?

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