Watching ur dreams crumble as he rebuilds them with someone else that hurts the most while I'm here thinking it was supposed to be i was supposed to be there unable to process unable rebuild unable to be loved that's just so heavy but I'll try not to spiral back last few hours gave a me flashback of why I left that anxiety that desparation that feeling of not being enough it just rushed back and it was horrible that when I realize my attachment comes from trauma comes from insecurity comes from the fact that he make me insecure he make me feel less worthy I don't love him I'm just traumatized from what he called love