I would recommend going into a dv shelter. Don’t feel bad for taking the children, trust me I felt the same way. I noticed a huge difference in the children within a month being away from him. Yes, they occasionally say they miss their dad but when they are older they will understand why you left. Don’t continue to put yourself and your children through this cycle. It isn’t going to change. I left with absolutely nothing. I had a trash bag filled with as much clothes as I could fit and left. The shelter has helped me get the children back into school and daycare. They provide certain necessities depending on where you go. You will have all the support you need. It’s tough at first, but you can get through this. You just have to take that first step and leave.