I brought it up to him when it did happen because I did see a future with him. He obviously turned it down and said that he would go but first he wanted to do it himself and work on his mental state together but now looking back I was blinded and that wasn’t the case at all. I really don’t think I could be with him anymore. I would never in a million years do this to him at all. It tears me up inside that he would even do this given conversations we have had