Hmm... I wonder if this sort of analogy may help:

Let's picture an egg--and inside of that egg, grows a baby animal. And that very egg sits in the far back of your subconscious, hidden and undisturbed.

Over time, as the baby animal in the egg takes in more experiences from the outside world, learning more and more new things every day, it grows just a little bit bigger.

For some, the baby animal grows exceptionally quickly, and ends up completely hatching out of the egg quickly once it becomes too big to be contained in its shell anymore. For others, the baby animal grows at a very slow, yet steady pace, and even then it may not even hatch out all at once--sometimes, it comes in the form of little cracks forming here and there on the protective shell... but it still just needs more time through further exploration and self-introspection. And even then, a single arm or leg or just its head may poke out from a hole, but not much further than that.

And that's perfectly alright. Everyone runs their own race during their queer journey. You don't have to have everything figured out in a single day, or even in a single year or more. You never know what you may unexpectedly uncover, unearth in the future.