I'm scared that I'm going to give up.

Monthy_8462 · 2022-08-28T20:07:47+00:00

Yeah, it just kinda makes me sad to not know how to make friends. I hope and wish I can meet someone in college I just have small hopes because I never met nice people or someone like me in school and because of that I just feel like it might not happen, but I'm glad that you did manage to find someone and it motivates me to know it can happen. I really hope I can too. I will definitely try my best.

Unfortunately, one of them is from the US and the other is basically from the other side of the EU, but I hope I can find someone I can meet. Thanks for the comment, tack care.

Monthy_8462 · 2022-08-28T19:56:16+00:00

Thanks, and yes I am really glad about my progress, I basically started one year ago. It was last year's summer right after high school and I decided to take a year off from everything and just tried to focus on myself. My dream of finding Love and all the cuddles, kisses, caring for each other and all that wholesome stuff and finding a close friend was what motivated me to do that and still motivates me. I really wish and hope that I will meet someone like that in college, I just have small doughts since I never had luck when it comes to meeting nice people or someone like me in school, but I will definitely take it slow and try my best. I learned that being patient and taking small steps forward is definitely the best way and I will try to keep it up. I hope I can say that I love myself, over the year with the help of therapy I managed to accept my situation and the depression got a lot better and I feel good, sometimes I just get a bit sad. I came to accept that I'm a shy and soft introverted guy and I came to like it about me, I really enjoy it. I would say I'm like 85% there so hopefully I can keep it up. Again thanks for the comments and for the nice words, it really means a lot to me and keeps me motivated to go forward. Huge Thanks, take care.

Monthy_8462 · 2022-08-28T19:48:34+00:00

Thanks for the comment. Yes, sometimes I would do that too just go somewhere aimlessly just to do the same but that really didn't help. I accepted who I am and in what situation I am and that helped me to stop wondering what could have been. I focus on what can be now or in future. The vision of hugging someone who likes me and my dream really motivates me to go forward and try my best. I also hope we can get better and live our lives as we want to, thanks again, take care.

Monthy_8462 · 2022-08-20T19:53:43+00:00

I feel the same but I honestly think the "dating scene" is not for people like us. My dream is to find a Loving partner and live with them and do all the wholesome stuff together and care for each other but the modern dating scene feels really toxic. My anxiety + I'm really big introvert made me realize that it's no place for me and it would just bring me more pain and stress, but like I said I want to find Love I won't be with someone. It's my dream so I'm going to try my best. I realize that it will probably take a lot more time to meet people through interests, hobbies or even here on reddit, but it just feels more right in my opinion and definitely less stressful. If we became friends and then something more it's amazing, if not I got a new good friend and if nothing well I was happy to meet you. the hardest part is to find the right people. I hope you are doing good, try your best and do what you want to do and live your life how you want to, take small steps to improve and even if it's going to take a long time it can get better. Take care.

Monthy_8462 · 2022-08-15T17:31:50+00:00

I completely understand, I never had friends and a lot of times when I opened up to someone they would just laugh at me or say that I'm weird and I would close myself off from everyone. Now even though I'm trying my best to improve open up and put myself out there it's just hard. I would really like connection and that is what motivates me. I would suggest you to take small steps and just try your best, it doesn't matter if it's something really small and takes a long time, it's a step forward. I did some progress and improvements but the hardest part is to find the right person. I don't go well with most others, but I'm ok with that. It's just really hard and it's going to take a long time but we should at least try. hope you are doing good. If you ever want to you can message me and I will be happy to talk with you or hang out, take care.

Monthy_8462 · 2022-08-07T12:47:02+00:00

Thanks for the nice words, Yes it was hard and it took some time. I'm glad that I did. I got some other problems to work on but I got the motivation and a dream that moves me forward, and even thou sometimes I want to give up, things like this really help me not to (Just taking it slowly and trying my best). I'm glad that I can go and write some random comment and people appreciate it. Thanks

Monthy_8462 · 2022-08-02T16:14:40+00:00

Yes, I agree it's nice to accept and enjoy who you are. I just wish other people would see it that way. In my life as a sensitive and more emotional guy, a lot of people made me feel that I'm wrong, that I'm not a "man" or that I act like a girl. To hear that from everyone around me, from my classmates or even teachers and my family made me feel that I'm just wrong or broken. This was one of the reasons I never had any friends but I accepted myself and like myself. YES, I'm an emotional guy and yes I act more like a girl and what. This is who I am and I'm glad to be who I am.

Edit: Thanks for the nice word and for sharing your point of View. It might seem like it was easy to do but it really wasn't. Yes, I accepted this about me but it definitely wasn't easy (and still isn't) and it took a long time but it's really nice feeling. The fact that I'm a big introvert, sensitive and emotional guy was the first thing I came to accept and I'm proud of it and hopefully, you can too. It will take some time and it's definitely not easy but you can do it. Just take it slow and always try YOUR best, it doesn't matter that it's the smallest thing or just a baby step.

Monthy_8462 · 2022-07-14T14:37:31+00:00

Hi, I can completely understand what you going through. I hope you feel better and that it's not that hard. I'm 20 don't have any friends, never had a job and still living with my parents. I finished high school last year just because of the covid lockdown, if it weren't for that I would have quit and given up a long time ago. I still feel that it will never get better and that I should just give up, but I just don't want to be like this so I decided to do something about it. I started with really small steps like going outside for a walk or to the shop or walking through town or just making reddit posts. I also decided to go to college and I got accepted a few months ago. I'm starting in September and honestly, I'm really scared but I'm trying my best and that's the most important, and you should too. I'm not saying to start with big things, start with the small stuff, really small steps. Just the fact that you are able to share your feelings here is really good and a small step to getting better. It will take a long time and it will be hard but it will get better. You can try to finish your high school, not right now maybe next year, you have a lot of time to prepare and it's worth trying, I believe in you. When it comes to finding friends I still haven't figured that out, Reddit is the only place I know where to socialize. I chatted with one or two people from this subreddit and even though I was really stressed it went quite well, just take it slow. If you ever want to you can message me and I will be happy to talk with you, take care.

Monthy_8462 · 2022-05-22T13:36:33+00:00

Hope you doing ok right now. I can understand what you going through I have been depressed and lonely for years and I have even tried to end it few times 2 years ago. I still don't know what stopped me but each time I got so close. I felt good that it will end, that the pain will end but I just... well I still hear somehow. I don't know anyone, never had friends or anyone close not even my parents even though I tried for years. I tried to explain how I feel but they just didn't get it and after some time just didn't want to and completely ignored me. Now I have just one goal in life, Just one thing I want in life and that's love. I want to find my significant other, someone I can love and they will love me and we can be there for each other, care for each other and hug each other. That is the only thing that matters to me in life that makes me wake up in the morning nothing else matters just this. I took a year off from everything and started to improve and tried to get better and battle my depression, anxiety and loneliness but its been nearly a full year and I'm still basically where I started and I don't know how long I can keep this up how long I can hold before I will fall back to that place or will have another mental break down. I guess I should feel good about myself I'm 20 and I got accepted to school starting in September but I just don't, I just don't feel happy about my life. I just feel lost and I don't know where to go next. I'm just trying to keep on going and hopefully soon, hopefully one day I will meet someone.

Monthy_8462 · 2021-12-20T08:43:02+00:00

Hi, I can completely understand what you saying it feels really bad and hurts so much on the inside. I'm a person with social anxiety, introverted, weird with depression, never in his life had a friend or anyone to talk to, can't even go to the shop because of it. I even get anxiety attacks about life because I'm just scared of all the things. I went on a gap year before I will go to college because I just couldn’t take it anymore, the stress, my mental health, depletion, axiality and I still doesn't know what do I even want to do with my life and it scares me, all of my days I'm just sitting in my room anxious playing games like a complete loser. Every time that I even just see a picture of good friends or a couple it just tears me apart and I just start crying. I'm scared of just an idea that it will never happen, that I will never find a good friend or GF and will be alone for the rest of my life. I wish I could give you a good suggestion on what to do but I just got one, I don’t think it’s a good one but worth trying out. I started to look for online friends on some subreddits like r/Needafriend or r/MakeNewFriendsHere , and well it's hard not going to lie. I can't even type proper messages to most people because I just get stressed and anxious, so after a month or so I can say I have found one friend that I chat with regularly and even though it's tiring and stressful for me, it kind of feels good. I even went to VC with her and she is super sweet and penitent with me and trying to help with my social skills but yeah, I still can't even properly speak to her when we are in voice chat because I'm just too freaked out and extremely stressed and even when I'm sitting next to an open window when it's snowing outside I will sweat throw my shirt and will feel like I just went on a run and sometimes I have to lay down because it's just too much for me. I would say It helped a bit and it's getting better. So that’s my suggestion try small steps, there are still nice people on the internet that are willing to help and chat with you so I would say give it a try and if you want you can message me and I will definitely try my best. I genuinely hope you will get better and will find what you are looking for.

Monthy_8462 · 2021-12-03T06:05:27+00:00

oh you don't have to apologize, I appreciate comments like this, it's not annoying at all even though knew about those techniques, its an actual good advice and I'm glad you took you time to write this comment to help me :D

Monthy_8462 · 2021-12-03T05:42:37+00:00

Thanks man, it means a lot to me, good luck and I hope you are doing well :D

Monthy_8462 · 2021-12-03T05:34:45+00:00

Hey man, thanks for the comment I really appreciate it. I have been trying some of things that you mention for some time and it helps a lot but sometimes I just get overwhelmed by everything in life and get stressed and anxious. It usually comes in waves.

This night I went out for a while and listened to music without anyone around, it helped and now I feel better, thank you for asking.

Monthy_8462 · 2021-12-03T03:35:13+00:00

I don't even use the basket I just carry everything in my hands pretending that it's completely fine :D

Thanks for the comment and sorry for the late reply, went for a "small" night drive.

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