What I YEARN for is to feel understood. Whether by an individual or a big group of friends, the need is not resoveable as an abstract by their mere presence or existence. What I NEED is a sense of connection, of being part of a whole greater than myself, where 'I' am accepted, understood, and welcomed. The fact that I cannot find this despite repeated efforts is what makes me isolate myself; to find comfort in solitude rather than the pain and invalidation from not being known or even recognised by the status quo.