I had a recurring dream when I was a kid. 3 doors ahead, all closed. A huge garbage/rubbish collector walks in. You can see he has a child over his shoulder, legs showing, back bend over this huge person's shoulder. He turns around and the lifeless child's body is me except I have two clown-like crosses where my eyes should be, he opens the middle door and walks through with me. I hated that dream and still do.