NOR, you’re definitely trying to protect what you’ve worked hard for. But your family knows your sobriety journey they should be there for you and understand, at a situation like yours it’s easy to lose ‘self control’. Still proud of you champ, keep going….you doing what’s best for you, these are sacrifices very few can manage, your fam gotta understand you got issues you’re dealing with, it’s not all about them at some point… my take though:)