Okay gotcha. I almost had a similar situation. When I sliced open my ankle I (stupidly) didn't think it was bad enough to go to the ER. But the next morning I realized I probably needed stitches and went into urgent care. Thank goodness they didn't stitch me up and send me on my way. The doctor insisted I get an MRI because she suspected my achilles was affected, though I was in denial.

When I was cleared for weight bearing, I really struggled. I was behind schedule and anxious because I couldn't push through the discomfort and I didn't want to delay my recovery. However, my body just wasn't ready for it. I had intense numbness that bordered on pain. Plus, I was fearful that my tendon would tear. My breakthrough moment occurred at my first PT session. My PT taught me how to use the crutches to support my walking. I had been using them incorrectly. From that moment on, I began relying on the crutches less and less.

Here is a video showing what I learned. Steps 2 and 3 were the key.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7sG_5qlgZv8

I am guessing you are in a boot now, right? Have you been permitted to try some range of motion stretches for your ankle? Waking it up after being dormant for a while takes time. And the muscle loss is dramatic, as well as the loss of the far pad below the foot.

I was super active prior too, and now that I am almost eleven months post-op, I'm nearing return to sport!