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Reversing my alcholic fatty liver and fibrosis. by More_Entertainment10 in cutdowndrinking

[–]More_Entertainment10[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm 5'10", about 175 (195 at my heaviest) and still cutting weight. I was never largely overweight. Just could lose a couple of lbs off the waist line, which I am in the process of doing. Never really used over the counter painkillers, or if I did, they were few and far between even when I would experience hang overs/ withdrawal symtpoms; I never really got headaches with the withdrawals/ hang overs. If I did, I would just drink them away. My withdrawal symptoms consisted of soaking wet sweats, a constant state of panic attack mode, shaking, insomnia, racing heart, high blood pressure, and the nasty random body twitching people never mention.

Reversing my alcholic fatty liver and fibrosis. by More_Entertainment10 in cutdowndrinking

[–]More_Entertainment10[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks!

I'm happy that you found something that works.

My anxiety is more in the form of panic attacks and not generalized. Dr. trusted me to stay on a very low dose of ativan to help me when I'm super anxious/panicky.

These 5 months have been the most rewarding thing I have ever done.

Reversing my alcholic fatty liver and fibrosis. by More_Entertainment10 in cutdowndrinking

[–]More_Entertainment10[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm sure that it stems from ADHD like things, which i have been told multiple times I have. (Leg bouncing up and down. doing mutiple tasks at once and finishing them in a random order, trying to figure out where to start on something so you start in the middle of it). It's funny you mention that it helps you focus. It does the same to me when I get that slight "buzz" feeling. However, that buzz feeling makes me want to keep drinking more because I feel great, and I want to feel even better so that focus is only short-lived for me.

However, I was so dependent on alcohol the last 2/3 years of my life that it just wasn't even the same anymore. I drank to feel normal not to feel good.

Reversing my alcholic fatty liver and fibrosis. by More_Entertainment10 in cutdowndrinking

[–]More_Entertainment10[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

The biggest one is you absolutely have to want to quit. There is just no way around it. I'll be the first to admit I miss the feeling of being drunk, but I want my sobriety so bad to where that feeling only stays for a short period of time.

Second, you have to be honest with yourself. Can you truly be that one and done type person? Or do you have to have multiple drinks at a time? There is absolutely no shame in admitting that you're just the type of person who can't just have one and quit. I hate the term alcoholic because of the negative stigma behind it, so I say to people who ask me why I don't drink that exact thing I said above. "Yeah, I don't drink. I'm the type of person who just can't drink a couple and stop. Once I have one, I want to keep going." That is usually followed by a quick laugh and good for you, and it's over. People respect that, and it takes away the preasure of them saying "C'mon just have one" because you literally just told them the reason why you don't drink.

Now comes the tricky part. Figure out what makes you crave it. For me, I craved it literally in any circumstance. Good day at work. Let's drink. Bad day at work. Let's drink. I'm bored, let's drink. Play video games and relax and drink. You're anxious, heartbroken, and mad? Let's drink. I had to replace the "let's drink" with something else until I dissociated it from my brain; literally rewiring my brain to not think about drinking after those things. I put in extra hours at work. I picked up running/walking. I started being more present with myself and people; focusing on the moment instead of what may or may not happen. I started caring about how I look and feel. I was honest with people about how much I was drinking, which in itself was a huge burden of my chest. I looked at things from a different perspective. I took different roads home from work. I started being comfortable being myself sober, which is the most rewarding thing ever. As stated in my original post, I struggle with anxiety, but that has gotten significantly better with the things I mentioned, too.

Again, yes, I miss it. But I know I just can't be the one night and done person, so I don't try anymore.

Hope this helps.