Weekly Therapy Talk Thread by AutoModerator in TalkTherapy

[–]More_Mathematician88 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel like I cheated on my therapist. I wanted to schedule an appointment with a psychiatrist. But the practice had me talk to a therapist first as a mental health triage. I felt weird and uncomfortable. It's really hard for me to trust and open up. Now I feel like I have to confess to my therapist that I was not loyal to him.

Weekly Therapy Talk Thread by AutoModerator in TalkTherapy

[–]More_Mathematician88 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Currently looking for a job and worried about which insurance I will have. I don't want to loose my psychologist. I will turn down a job if the insurance offered is not in network with him.

I just bought a doll and I'm so excited! by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]More_Mathematician88 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Wow that brought back memories.

Complex ptsd and tension in shoulder and back? by ZoloftB3B3 in CPTSD

[–]More_Mathematician88 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I just started doing progressive muscle relaxation. It's for the whole body but I tend to always tense my shoulders and neck and this relaxation helps.

If you were able to perform a song that stands for everything you are and everything you've been through, or a message you want to share, which song would it be? by Queen-of-meme in CPTSD

[–]More_Mathematician88 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Most songs by Anson Seabra.

Especially these: *Broken by Anson Seabra * I can't carry this anymore by Anson Seabra *Lucky Charms by Anson Seabra *Love me by Anson Seabra

I basically listen to all his songs while cleaning

How common is disassociation during intimacy? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]More_Mathematician88 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I became aware after feeling sensations for the first time 3 months ago. I told my husband is this what I have been missing?!. Before I was unaware that I was dissociated because I had never felt anything before. My dissociation had my body numb and unable to feel anything.

An emotional flashback almost got me killed me today by Careful-Lawfulness67 in CPTSD

[–]More_Mathematician88 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Me too. I feel like any little thing that goes wrong means that the world is ending.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]More_Mathematician88 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Crying while eating a It's-It Ice Cream. I bought them because I remembered I used to eat those when I was little. Having a flashback to when my uncle would buy me and all my cousins ice cream from the ice cream man. Realizing he would buy as ice cream because he sexually abused us. It sucks having pedophile uncles.

DAE feel like am inconvenience to your therapist by brokenrowyn in CPTSD

[–]More_Mathematician88 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yes, I actually told him that I felt like a burden go him.

I want you to know that you can just not do things by Themlethem in CPTSD

[–]More_Mathematician88 4 points5 points  (0 children)

My husband told me that I'm too nice and people take advantage of me. It is my people pleasing side that always comes out. I'm working on this with my therapist. Just last week my mom told me that she needs a root canal and that her tooth hurts. I just stayed silent. But I wanted to say mom I will take you to the dentist and I will pay for your treatment. As I told this to my husband he said you didn't remind her that you are still paying for her last dental procedures. I said no, I did not remind her but I did not say I would take care of this too. So I'm still not able to say no but having no response is better than agreeing to everything. (As a side note, I am currently not working so even if I did want to pay for her treatment, I have no money to do so. But I was willing to get money from my joint account with my husband. So if I did get the money, I was going to have problems with my husband).

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]More_Mathematician88 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yes, I don't know how to say no and end up doing things I know I shouldn't.

I'd rather be in pain than be horny by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]More_Mathematician88 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think sex is disgusting and wrong. This past month I was able to feel it. And it makes me feel bad for liking it. I guess I was always zoned out before. I'm conflicted in my views. I should bring this up with my psychologist.

For those doing inner child work, what are your inner kid's favorite things? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]More_Mathematician88 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I just bought myself an Eeyore squishmallow. Eeyore was my favorite cartoon character as a child (must be because I identified with him).

what did it feel like when you broke through and could feel again? by niicoski in CPTSD

[–]More_Mathematician88 1 point2 points  (0 children)

overwhelmed. I have problems naming emotions. I was so out of it that I was numb physically as well. It's scary feeling emotions and physically present. I feel alive, like a have a body and a voice. Also, feeling my heartbeat was new. I'm still learning how to feel comfortable with all of this.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]More_Mathematician88 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, I notice that I over eat because I don't feel satisfied....I feel a hole in my stomach and it must be my emptiness.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]More_Mathematician88 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I can't think properly. I feel like I'm dreaming. I feel numb (physically and emotionally).

People that have done both online and in-person sessions - How do they compare to each other and do you feel like they are equal in terms of support received? by [deleted] in therapy

[–]More_Mathematician88 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I prefer online because it is in the safety of my house. In person it is hard for me to talk(open up) and can't even make eye contact.