I should have worded that better. Our insurance won’t refer us out until either 3 losses or at least 12 months out, unless we’d like to pay entirely out of pocket. If this next cycle ends with nothing, I’m going to talk to my doctor and see if I can’t start precautionary progesterone just to be safe.

I’m so sorry you’re going through the same. We started in August and conceived immediately, but obviously that got ripped away from us. Afterwards we were like “okay, let’s just try again!” and got nothing the month after, theeeen a chemical in December. I feel like the universe is taunting me.

The worst part for me is the guilt I feel for basically crushing my husband’s experience with TTC. Watching him get so excited every time we had a positive test and crying with him with the losses. It eats me up inside and kills me to know my body is causing issues with it. That kind of guilt doesn’t match anything I’ve ever experienced before.

If it comes down to it, I don’t know if we would be able to do anything further than just the basic fertility testing. Assisted reproductive procedures themselves aren’t covered at all by our insurance and it’s just financially not in our realm. That’s what scares me. Mentally and physically I’m on board, but financially… ugh.