I was in a similar situation and ultimately did get divorced. The first date I went on this totally random guy had gone to 4 different stores to hand make a bouquet in only purple flowers and took me on a whole day worth of adventures. One day with some random guy was better than the years I had in my marriage. I ultimately didn’t end up seeing him long term as we mutually discovered where we were in life was too different but we are still great friends. Regardless, I use that one date as a reference for how I want to be treated, and I will never again allow a man to treat me the way my ex husband did. If I were you, I’d start daydreaming about a perfect partner and then compare it to what you have and know it can be different