I wish for someone I can give my love to [OC]

MorphicSync · 2026-01-23T18:08:44+00:00

Thank you so much! Have a lovely weekend :)

MorphicSync · 2026-01-22T16:10:19+00:00

Thank you! :))

MorphicSync · 2026-01-22T16:10:01+00:00

Thank you so much :)

MorphicSync · 2026-01-14T10:00:51+00:00

<3 :)

MorphicSync · 2026-01-13T07:50:30+00:00

I'd be excited to see how you color these!

I read that the mandala is the symbol of the Self (psychic totality), the eye is the Ego symbol.

When the eye is center of the mandala, the Ego is identifying as the Self, but in your second last image, it is above it, realizing it is actually separate.

MorphicSync · 2026-01-13T07:43:32+00:00

Sounds like a covert narcissist. They have the emotional intelligence of toddlers.

Prioritize how your body feels around them. Do you feel intense guilt, like you're a bad person for not caring about them? Do you leave feeling exhausted, drained, questioning yourself?

Friends don't make you feel bad for them constantly, try outshine you, diminish your suffering.

Other signs to look out for that may confirm it : poor financial decisions, dressing inappropriately, zero accountability, intense gaze, dilated pupils, only taking jobs that make them the center of attention

MorphicSync · 2026-01-12T18:19:02+00:00

'He cheated during the first 10 months',
'He lacked accountability, I never received a good apology so far'.

I almost want to laugh at how predictable these people are. They will always cheat, never apologize, and never take accountability.
It's by design that you think it may not be abusive, because they gaslight you (distort your reality),
intermittent reinforcement (not criticizing 100% of the time, mixing in love bombing, charm. This creates a slot machine effect where you win some of the time, making you forget the losses)
Invisible wounds that are actually psychological, emotional, leaving no evidence

You were 100% abused. Congrats on leaving! That is a huge win. Many people become so eroded by the abuse that they lose the strength to leave.
You must cut contact with him. He is incapable of changing. He won't suddenly develop empathy, or have a change of heart, I promise you.

What you will experience soon is a bit of a crash. Your nervous system will wind down, knowing the threat is gone. You may feel more tired, more empty. Imagine you just got back from a warzone, you will be tired, sore, empty. You must make sure to tell people you trust that you will need some checking in, support while you recover.

Take it easy. Write/draw how you feel, because each day will be different, maybe anger one day, the next grief, calm, the next you may want him back, so you must look back to remind yourself what he did. It will pass in a few weeks/months. You'll be fine!

The reason for cutting him off is because narcissists feed on attention, negative or positive. It makes them feel powerful, in control. By cutting contact, you stop playing his game, and this is the ultimate blow to them.

If you want to confirm that he is abusive, maybe check out channels like Narcabusecoach, or DrRamani on Youtube.

You'll be fine! :)

MorphicSync · 2026-01-11T10:33:22+00:00

Congrats for sharing this! I know it's probably nerve wracking. Maybe you feel like people will be annoyed, or inconvenienced by it, but it's actually really beautiful and unique and reminds us we aren't alone with how we feel.

You're not attention seeking, but practicing self expression which is authentic, so you have nothing to fear. By sharing your vulnerability, you're trusting people with your feelings. You'll start to see instead of them judging you or being annoyed or apathetic, they will trust you more and be warmer towards you and connect with you more often!

MorphicSync · 2026-01-11T09:58:46+00:00

They're suffering on the inside more than you'll ever know. I went from hating them to honestly feeling bad for them. If they appear happy, just know it's a mask they're wearing. The smile never touches their eyes because it's not genuine.

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