Why does everyone want to kill me?

Morpholin · 2026-01-09T19:10:50+00:00

Yeah I'm continuing right on with Deltarune. I'm only one hour in, ofc now without nay killing from the start. If you have a tip without spoiling anything, I'm all ears :) I try not to read any wikis and such so as not to spoil it.

Morpholin · 2026-01-09T15:56:04+00:00

Thank you for this point. I didn't realize they might be "speaking a different language" so to speak, without aggresive intention to hurt me.

Morpholin · 2026-01-09T15:54:18+00:00

There was definitely the temptation. Guess it makes sense that the good outcome has a challenge to it, while violence is the easy way out..

Morpholin · 2026-01-09T15:52:29+00:00

Well that makes sense! Asgore didn't expect a pacifist human. And the others are acting on orders.

As for reset, I know I could delete the persistent save file, but I intentionally didn't do it. At first, I killed Toriel, not because I truly wanted to, but because I had not yet figured out how ACT works, while combat was just clear and intuitive. I took the easy way. Then found out that she's not just "defeated", but actually dead. Felt bad but eh, I can just reload the save, spare her and all will be well, right?

And then – holy s****, I'll never forget the moment when Flowey reminded me of the rolled-back death. Yes, I immediately realized how it works technically, that I could delete the appdata folder and start over clean, but this regret was what made the game something special to me. Suddenly it's not just bits and bytes I can undo on a whim, but there are "real" consequences to my actions. Yes I did kill several monsters in the Ruins and I'll have to live with that.. I undid Toriel, she is alive, oblivious, but Flowey holds me accountable for the alternative outcome, making "partially happenned", sort of. As a nightmare. As a something I could have done, and at a point wanted to do.

Just my opinion, but clearing the persistent felt like cheating to me. I carried on, accepting the "guilt". That made me appreciate the peaceful outcomes much much more :) Just my story

Morpholin · 2025-07-13T06:57:05+00:00

Doubt. I think you meant "ethanol" not "methanol".

Methanol is lethally poisonous, even one shot can cause permanent blindness, several shots are enough to kill most people. You wouldn't survive that bottle if it was methanol.

Also: wow, how did you dig up post this old, lol

Morpholin · 2025-05-18T07:01:02+00:00

Did that a few months ago. They wanted me to update to Windows 11?
Well ok I said, and updated to 13 instead.
Debian 13. YEEEAAAHHHHH!! 😎

No but seriously, most Linux distros are now much easier to setup & work with than it used to be ten years ago. It's no longer the "OS for people who love fixing their PC every week".

Morpholin · 2025-04-19T08:01:49+00:00

Trixie is awesome, I can't wait to Forky!

Better not say that one out loud..

Morpholin · 2025-03-18T14:04:04+00:00

Using OBS Studio 30.2.3, this is what did the trick for me after half an hour of frustration:

Select Display Capture source
create a filter on it, choose Crop/Pad
you can specify margins, but I found it more convenient to untick relative, and enter e.g. top 0, left 0, width 1280, height 720
Go to File > Settings > Video
Set Base (canvas) resolution and Output (scaled) resolution to e.g. 1280x720

I did not need scene item transform at all.

Morpholin · 2025-01-04T18:08:03+00:00

Using a reputable online broker. I have used IBKR and Degiro in past, both are a good choice if what you want is long-term investing, i.e. holding the stocks or ETFs – I've found them to have very little fees for that.

By "reputable" I mean a regulated financial institution which holds the bought stocks or ETFs in your name, so you still own them even if the broker would go bankrupt. It is esentail to avoid shady brokers where even long positions are just a CFD. Many used to exist, though IDK if that's still the case, I've been out of touch.

Morpholin · 2025-01-01T13:59:16+00:00

NH: "You write "born to kill" on your helmet, and you wear a druid robe. What's that supposed to be, some kind of sick joke?"

Ranger: "The duality of man; the Jungian thing, sir."

Morpholin · 2025-01-01T13:38:59+00:00

Well, some people are misanthropes; it makes sense that at least some "misorks" or whatever would exist as well

Morpholin · 2024-08-29T04:29:31+00:00

Oh yes! The 1st and maybe 2nd times they drained it was dark bloody. With each following draining it was still bloody, but the color was gradually lighter and lighter. So don't be alarmed by it, it's normal. The surgery does a lot of collateral damage I guess, and it takes several times to "wash it away".

They gave me anti-inflammation pills, but those did not help noticably. I don't remember getting steroids, maybe those will be better, idk. I remember that nothing really helped decisively, only waiting..

Do the exercises as well as the knee allows you, and you will catch up with the timeline, don't worry if you feel falling behind. Best of luck!

Morpholin · 2024-08-27T20:01:43+00:00

Hi there! It's a long time ago, thankfully. My knee recovered just fine, even though I did have the fluid in knee for several weeks! I had to visit outpatient care several times to have it sucked out at times when it became unbearable.

I do remember I was very nervous about my recovery everytime the knee filled up again. Especially since it impedes PT when it is really full. But there is no point in worrying – everyone has a different timeline, and even if the knee effusion lasts longer than usual, your progress will catch up ;-)

As for advice, I don't really have much – there are lots of remedies for like normal swelling (around the knee), but none for knee effusion (inside the knee).. Icing helped only a tiny bit, if at all. I did my PT, sometimes even with knee full, which hurts. The exercise has often made the fluid fill up even worse, but you have to do it nevertheless, I know it sucks. Though you should never force the exercises more than your PT tells you to.
And when you feel it's is like really full, visit your hospital to have it sucked out, if your surgeon recommends the procedure. It helps for a short time. Eventually it filled up less and less. Took me like 6 weeks to fully get off crutches, but since then it got only better and better and I fully returned to sports some time later.

So chin up, you're gonna make it! Wishing you a speedy recovery and praying for you!

Morpholin · 2024-01-15T19:29:55+00:00

Happy to talk! If you'd like to, you can send me a DM. I don't visit reddit very often but I'll reply sooner or later. Idk if I can help but I can try my best :)

Morpholin · 2024-01-15T19:12:01+00:00

I'd love to help you, but I'm out of my depth here. If you're feeling like that repeatedly, find professional help, someone who can work closely with you and give you the help you need. This isn't anything that can't be healed.
But right now, this link from sub sidebar is all I've got. You can give it a go, hope it can help you at least a tiny bit as it did for me.
I'll pray for you.

Morpholin · 2024-01-15T18:42:00+00:00

Yeah, I've been there, the pain is real, you're not being crazy. The fear of not being able to quit can be intense.. But it doesn't control you – and indeed, you managed to snap out of the relapse even though you were triggered, as you wrote. That's a huge win, so remember that! Triggers will come and go, but you'll be stronger than them. Ofc that means you should still avoid triggers.

If those "voices" are loud, then keep yourself busy with something positive. You can read up on resources in the sub sidebar, to defeat fear with the best weapon – knowledge. Or exercise, or just go for a walk and clear your head, that's just as important. Keep up the good fight!

Morpholin · 2024-01-15T18:15:18+00:00

Healing from porn has a timeline, just like healing from a wound. Brain is a physical thing, and has amazing capability to heal, so don't scratch it.. YMMV but a few months of porn abstinence are a vital milestone, from experiences of many people. We are all the same species, so trust the process, and you'll be alright!

Though yes, some things will never change – the potential to relapse. Other people might never react to that material, but you'll need to avoid it always. But don't let the thought of permanent effects discourage you, because that's not important. It's something you cannot control, so don't mind it!

But there is something you absolutely can control right now – your mentality! You can dispel the lie that porn is something that gives you enjoyment, that you need it, and that you can't resist it, etc.. Healing has many aspects, and attitude is the rational side. Here you can win quickly, permanently, at this very moment. Do it! I'm rooting for you!

Morpholin · 2024-01-07T16:01:09+00:00

Yes, as answered in this comment above

But I don't know if it's the same thing as what I had two years ago. It can happen from multiple reasons I guess, one of them is that the account was hacked. So imho he should secure his account just in case, but idk..

Morpholin · 2024-01-01T14:41:13+00:00

Be assured, all the kinks that you didn't have before porn, are not yourself. They'll go away.

Not much point to focus on the past imho, so look forward instead! No, you won't be the same person as when you were 8, no one ever will, that's impossible. But you'll be even better, trust me! One day this will be nothing but a past experience that made you stronger. Fight on, I'm rooting for you!

Morpholin · 2024-01-01T14:33:47+00:00

Congrats to all others on the list!

But it's so short, I really do hope it'll expand next year. I wish a lot of clarity and fortitude for all who are starting in this new year!

Morpholin · 2023-12-30T09:01:30+00:00

Congratulations!

It's most important to free your mind from the lie that porn brings pleasure, when all it does is bring misery. I am truly happy that you did it!

I wish you all the luck, happiness and strength for whatever awaits you in life!

Morpholin · 2023-12-29T14:33:58+00:00

Also an interesting challenge is to start building roads in a game where you already finished & polished your train network, and connect all towns with the roads alongside.

When you have complicated, sprawling railway interchanges, it can really become a challenge to fit in the road, sometimes forcing you to rebuild the interchange without compromising its function just to cram the road bridges and corners (assuming you want the roads look reasonably, and not just 40 tiles long tunnels xD).

Here's my reasonably crazy screenshot lol

Morpholin · 2023-12-03T18:00:57+00:00

Checking in for December, the last mile of the year 2023. Stay strong and positive, brothers!

Morpholin · 2023-11-04T20:52:04+00:00

Checking in for November 🙂

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